BOO ! (:

midyears are finally over .should have tt happy feeling but where on earth has it gone to . i feel lyk screaming till i loose my voice and cry till i cant cry anymore . bloodyhell . wads wrong with me . i tink i'll need many more exams lyk everyday to keep me distracted and focused on studies instead of getting distracted by life's stoopid distractions . i rather th stress then gettin distracted .
bloodyhell .you tink you who sia . sae wad shet when you dun even know head or tail of th freakin situation .dunno anything then juz shuddup la .bloodybitch . omg . why on earth am i even thinking of you . i muz be going crazy . yeah . that muz be th case . lemme tell you this . i dun give a shet bout ur wadeva xiao jie pi qi kaay . you created tis shet get urself out of it luhh . i pity him sehh . muz clear th shet you created . wake up la . he aint ur servant and why on earth would i do sth tt wont benefit me . please la . use ur brain can .even 3 year old kid will know la . come on la . we juz stating out th facts n th truth . hate me ? come la . i scared you uhh . bloodyhell .
shall not rant on anymore .. spoil my mood only . yujun ! where you ? i going crazy already luhh . when you gonna reach home n online ? alvin also not online .. jianyi not online too .. nobody talk to .. sian .. lazy msg ppl also .. still muz wait for reply .. yujun muz tink im super vulgar .okaay .im nt th extreme kind bt caz of wads goin on im becoming more vulgar .i dun give a damm anyway .stoopid fone playing with my mind .showing me stuff i dun wan see and tricking me into believeing it and i also deleted stuff caz of it . wth . . midyears . eng tink can pass . chinese .i dunno .eye pain do quite slow n chionged th two compre . emaths . can pass . a maths . die .i stare at th paper it stare back at me . geog . maybe can pass . ss . dun really have a good feeling bout it . chem . more then 20marks i happy already . physics . can pass . bio . do until very happy lo . haha .
sae wad i remembering machine .before exam can rmb during exam i'll be lyk shet . i got study bt why cant i rmb . yeah .tt's her for you . haha . feels weird coming home so early .past few weeks bout seven plus or even later then reach home .. amazingly never get scolded at all .shall go stone while waiting for th da xiao jie come online .

this aint a fairytale and im not a princess . this is a nightmare and im struggling in th deep darkness to find tt glimmer of light and hope to pull myself out of this nightmare .and to a place where i'll be th princess of my very own fairytale and a place where dreams do come true .沒有白馬王子也沒有關係 . 只要每天開開心心 , 快快樂樂 過這屬於我自己的童話故事就夠了 .因為我知道總有一個部會拋棄我的人.永遠會培在我生邊不會離開我.


well .dunno if you'll read this or even come here at all .but if you do .i want you to know .i dont blame you for anything or hate you .so pretty please throw away all th guilt or wad shet .im hoping for a friendship like before .if ya dun wan it anymore juz tell me .like i said many times before .if ya ever need anyone when ur feeling down or alone rmb that you still have a super crazy and retarded friend here for you .and th crazy friend is contactable 24/7 , 365 days/year . haha . yeah . and if ya still feel guilty or wad YOU'RE FORGIVEN and you always will be . alright ? haha .

managed to finish modulus quiz and get 70% rite even though head was going bing bong biang . aniway . thankyou iris for th encouragement . ily ! haha . i screwed up both papers .. both is first one can write . th next one die already . found out tt going library can study more . less distractions and i can tune out th sounds . why cant i do tt at home .. so dumb ..
im gonna die tmr .. n if anything happen to me remember DO NOT call my mum or tell her anything .
im so smart . can study till got bruise .. wth ..

雖然在茫茫人海中 ,寂寞的感覺還一直在 ...
這樣下去 ..
我不瘋才怪 ...

wth is wrong with me ..

well .i guess . i dunno .im nt gonna tink anymore .i'll juz live everyday as it comes and as it is .
a super super big thankyou to th many ppl who helped me super lots .

LEE ZIQING . thankyou so much .talked till quite late n you were studying but still you were there for me .xiexieni .
ALVIN TAN SHU FENG . thankyou for ur big big super sunshine smiles whenever i see you around in sku and juz letting me shout ur name loudly for fun .
NICHOL LEONG JIA EN . thankyou for everything . ily loads .
LEE YUJUN . heyy dear . thankyou for everything . i know you wasted alot of smses on me . haha . thankyou loads . ily .
TAN HUIZHEN . for all th valuable stuffs tt made sense to me even though i was breakin down real bad .
DENISE . i know th mass crying/emo-ing pissed you off . but stil . thankyou for counsilling all of us .
XUETING . thankyew for everything .
SHAYUE . ah you . alot of thing to say . but i think you know wad i wanna say . haha .
STRAWBERRY :D . yah . you too . shld know wad i wanna say .
LEON LIM . th most unexpected one .haha .tuesday was breakin down real bad n yunmin also cryin so scrolled thru whole contact list n den called you . i dunno why too .haha . thankyou for listening to everything . i know its lyk nt very clear caz i was crying quite badly . haha . bud aniway . thankyou . and you still owe me my book !
YUNMIN . thankyou for everything . calling me n comforting me n stuffs . and for making me laugh with chunmei and chunyun in th background talkin . haha .
JENSI .thankyou for th hugg and th lil talk on tuesday . (:
DONG TIANLAN . heh . i know i influenced you and made you cry too . anyway . cheer up yea . dun sad anymore . no one blames you . SMILE alright .

yea .. i tink tt's about all . sorry if i missed out ur name .. haha .. super big thankyou to all of ur . i love ur loads .
tot thru wad ur said and yeah . it does make sense . nichol told me a story on sports day .about a princess . and whenever she cries , her tears will turn into jewels and other precious stuffs .and therefore . tears are precious things . n cannot cry for th littlest things . and other cheem chinese stuffs in th beautiful love letter . haha . yeah . all of ur told me stuffs real valuable to me . n so . sac will nt cry so easily anymore . but instead try to build herself up on her own n shed th mask she's hidding behind bit by bit . and soon there wont be anymore mask .

juz realised sth today .whenever me or lan nt in a good mood or cry or wad n we're tgt will go jurong point and walk around and do random stuff and talk random things till we're all feeling better . haha .and today shayue was dragged in too . haha . in th mrt me arm started bleeding n nt really in th mood to care so juz let it bleed .juz pulled th sleeve a lil higher so wont kena stain n let it continue bleedin . hahaha .yue saw n looked away . lan saw and took out plaster . sac saw n dun give a damm . haha .

even if there's no legacy or anything , EDC is still th best and i love all of you loads . i dun wan this year to end . nt now . and never . im gonna miss all of ur so much . th sec 2-4 are super bonded .some of th sec ones included too . im gonna miss all of ur so much . frm zijing all th way to vanessa .we started cryin bout it since last year cultural pot .tis year's cultural pot gonna be different without all of ur in it . th characters wont be th same anymore . well . time wont stop .

ah well ..
time to go study ..
thankyouforallthewonderfulmemories .they'llbetreasured .ireallyhopethefriendshipwillcontinueon .andnotstopbecauseofwhathappened .
if i had one last minute to live . i would use tt very last breathe i have to tell you iloveyou .
believe it or not . it'll be th same for each n everyone of you .

sac's no more th sac you all used to know .
so get this into ur heads .
sac's nt a person who you can juz play with .
she needs constant love , care and concern too .
nt constant tearing apart n breakin down of .
tearing apart and breaking down will only ruin her more .
she needs building up . not tearing down .
she's already really badly ruined .
so please stop it ..
its time sac learnt to be strong and nt juz act strong .
she doesnt want to cry anymore .
she's freakin tired of trying .
and trusting th wrong ppl time and time again .
and for trusting tt bitch so much .but now th truth is out . sac aint gonna trust you anymore .
lyk someone once told me before 你應該 去打強心針 .
tt's so true .
she's too weak .
she doesnt want to put on an act anymore .
she's tired .
she wants to take off tt mask .
but she doesnt want to show th world her pathetic self .
she really needs to be strong .
tt's a definite must .
and she's gonna look things in a whole new perspective .
and a big big thankyou to tan huizhen . alvin tan shu feng . nichol leong jia en .shayue .lee ziqing .chua weiming .yeow minquan . lee yujun .lim xueting .dong tianlan . for being there for her today . when she showed her pathetic self to ur and as ur watched her break down and cry real bad .
thankyou for being there for her . and for all ur huggs .
she really appreciated that .
she's going to learn to be strong and not cry anymore .
and this pathetic self that she's hiding will be gone . for good . when she finally learns how to be strong .

BOO ! (:

finally finished th e learning thing . so stoopid . th ppl resetted th physics quiz caz it was super lag and alot of ppl din finish .. n muz do all over again .. so dumb .. translation was dumb too .. crapped th whole thing out ..
saturday dunno where to go .. sabby's birthday or go out with parents .. cant decide lehh .. its lyk only once sabby's gonna be 21 and den celebrate belated b'dae for father .. i really dunno lo.. timing n date all crash .. one at sentosa one at i dunno where ..
drama has a blog ! haha .. and its pretty ! hahaha ..

aniway if anyone can find wad maths to do msg me tell me can ? i cant find ..

BOO ! (:

ask n learn laggin lyk shyat ..
waste my time ..
its 9.40 now ..
n physics ends at ten ..
isnt tt wonderful ..
aniway .
enjoy ur elearning .
im so not gonna enjoy it ..

BOO ! (:

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today no drama .. tis week no drama .. sian lo .. at home gt nth to do ..
forgot how calculate velocity and there goea th physics test . maths i tink can pass ..
aniway . syf's over . now is wait for results . and plan th sec 4 farewell party . n they got requests .. plus drama fund quite little .. how buy all . hahaha . aniway . thru this SYF got quite alot of ppl to tank n stuffs .
not in any order .based on who i tink of first . haha .

Minhan : thankyou so so much . for helpin out with th screens and i know my mood swings are terrible . and for letting me hug you . it can be super sudden and you still let me hug for as long as i wan . tankyew dear . ily loads . jiayou for everything .
Amelia : thankyou loads . for bein there when i cried . and juz enduring my super bad temper and all .i lost it quite a few times . but thankyou for helpin me in cemetry scene and all . ily .
Jianyi : ehh ! sister ! haha . tankyou so much for letting me vent anger on you .and for juz letting me complain on and on .. and for helping me out so much in th cemetry scene . xie xie ni .
Alvin : heyy (: i love th eye shadow you put on friday . super nice la . haha . thankyou for everything . i cant rmb every detail . bud thankyou !
Michelle : Mrs Tumiwa ! thankyou for everything . and listen to wad i said while i was crying . i know its kinda unclear and slow and irrelavent . but thankyou for everything . ily loads . im gonna miss you so so much la ..
Jocelyn : i know we made you pissed and all durin rehearsals . but thankyou so much .for everything . i'll miss you lots la ..
shayue : as usual . th mood swings which you've endured for super long . and sometimes can juz shout at you for no reason . and quite unreasonable la . bud tankyew so so much for stil being there for me . and for saturday . th super long dinner we had . and all tt you told me . tankyew . so so much for everything . ily alot .
Yujun : tankyou for all th stuffs . ily too . all th best for everything .

i cant rmb all th stuffs over th past 3+ mths . but juz wanna thank all of ur (:
drama rawks . i love all you guys and gals .

th memories of syf .. will always stay with me . and i wont forget any of you . tis may juz be th last syf im takin part in for th rest of my life . haha ..
aniway .. its picture time . i look freaky though . haha .

th wednesday where 3/4 of th world was missing .. and then grp fotos of sec 1 - 4 . and whole drama de pic . and we went pizza for dinner . haha . th waitress skill abit lousy uhh .. hahaha ..