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Sent deb off just nao .. :( Lilin's flying later .. Wen's flying on Friday :( All flying offfffffff :( If ling go overseas and zac go army and yang not around I really will die . But yang will be around . Hopefully . When army stabilize then can book out during weekends . Hopefully can play . Idw play alone :( not fun . Hahaha . They already deprive me of zac and Josh :( I want my old band back :( sian . Every new year suay suay also my band disband . :( I want band three !!!!! Band3'10 rocks ! Like super lots . My new band is BORINGGGGGGGGG ! th guitarist change key also don't bother telling me . Win Liao lo . All th fun ppl in th band fly away .. Siannnnnnnn . Made choco cheese cake ! Not bad ! That was my lunch . Haha . Half a slice I full dy . That's how filling th Cake was . But it's a success . That's all that matters . Hahaha .

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Th little things in life (: How often do we take all of these for granted . When a parent call th kid caz it's late and they aren't home . How often will th kid ever feel that th parents care for them . Instead they'll just think parents are irritating and they don't have any freedom . When I received that call just now , I felt loved (: you must be thinking I crazy right . That's just th way it is . In most cases , it's th mum that call . But mine is dad . Aweshummmm (: When I fell sick , he bought medicine plus one big box of strepsils . So sweet right . Haha . Mother always say my dad's not like deb's dad that will pamper th kid . That's where she's wrong . My dad is th Same (: just that he does it in not so obvious ways . It's th little and smallest things that really bring joy t life (:

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Taylor swift rocks . I'm like falling in love with her all over again . Especially love ' Back t December ' , 'white horse ' and ' teardrops on my guitar ' . now whoever said teardrops on my guitar couldn't be played on piano is so wrong .. Caz it can and it sounds good .. I'm so gonna record back t December . Soon . So what if I didn't get t go t her concert today .. There'll always be a next time . Plus listening t her songs at home alone is a whole lot better than going t indoor stadium and hearing all th other ppl scream like retards . With some imagination , it's like a personal concert . And I can choose whatever songs that I wanna listen t . Yang's leaving for Cambodia later and he didn't tell me till last week :( how on earth am I gonna split myself next week .. I'm scheduled t play for both upstairs and downstairs . Grrrr . Mandy's in Anzac .. :( Everybody's flying away .. kkkkkkKkkkkkkk ... Oiii ! If you read this . I'm damm bored . Haha . I think only you know that I'm referring t you .. I guess . Haha . You owe me stuffs manzxzxzxzxz . I'm waitinggggggg (: hahaha . I can't sleep lehhh ! Never sing song for me huhhhhhh :( hahaha . If I really stranded in an ocean far far away somewhere you will really come find me ? Hahaha . I guess . Maybe .... Idk .. G more important Horr . I figured out who she is dy . I'm sho smart . Muahaha .

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Idk if you come here anymore .. Idk if you even bother coming t read bout my pathetic life anymore .. I really dunno .. But if you do .. Here's what I gotta say t you . It may be long but pls bear with me . It's what I really feel deep down inside .. Shall start with what a friend posted on fb . I believe you have read th first half . I sent it t you .. But i didnt send second half .. anyway here goes .. " a friendship always takes two hands t clap and can only be true when both parties pour out their soul t each other . Otherwise how can it be considered a friendship if you can't even open your mouth and tell th other person what's troubling you ..? 神雕侠女 showcases one of th greatest love story in yang guo and xiao long nv . Yet when they finally met after 16 years of separation , her first words are not 'I love you' or 'I miss you' or anything similar . Her first words were " guo-er what's troubling you" none of us are mind readers . Not even th deep love they share gave her th ability t read his mind . God gave us friends t confide in . It is with friends that we share our burden and continue our journey in life . If we can't share with our friends , who else can we share with " After being through so much . For me its more like dependence . It's sth like this scenario . I'm lost in th vast sea of deep blue and I'm afraid of drowning so bad that I'm clinging t a log that's stagnated and rooted t th ground . I don't wanna let go caz I'm afraid I'll drown . I just don't have that courage t let go . Even though I know I won't get back t dry land . Caz th log is rooted t th ground and it's in th middle of th sea . No matter how rough th sea is or how cold it is . I just don't have th courage t let go and find my way t dry land caz I'm afraid I'll drown . Since day one . Th day when I started telling you all my problems . It has become a habit . It's like 我太依赖你了 . I just don't know how t get up . Give me time . I promise I'll change . Idk how long it'll take . I know bombing you with my problems makes you irritated . I'm trying t change that habit . I swear I am . I know sometimes it's like super trivial matters . But I still bother you with them . I'm really sorry . I really need time . Time t learn how t let go and time t gather enough courage t let go and find my way back t dry ground . It's tough and I may not have th strength t do it . And please give me time . Not replying wont help . It'll just make me cling on even tighter . I know it may be too much t ask . Caz you have t deal with your princess' and your own problems too . I really really need time . Ppl have been helping me . But it all boils down t willpower . I guess I'm not that strong after all . I'm just a weakling . Refusing t let go . Just a coward . Too afraid of drowning . Just too selfish . Caz I don't wanna share . I'm just that pathetic . I'm really really really sorry for always bothering you with my problems . I know you really care . But sometimes being too dependent will only bring a person down . I am trying my very best t be independent . I hope you'll understand and give me time . I'm really really really really really really really sorry . Now you finally know what kind of a person I am ... I'm really really sorry . This is me .. Th real me .. Stripped of all th masks .. Th plain old ugly truth .. Now you know what I really am .. Idk what you'll think of me after reading this .. But this is all my 真心话 .. And you'll forever still be regarded as my brother .. As long as I live . If one day sth happens , and I loose my memory . Pls make me remember you . I know you'll think of a way somehow . Caz I know that you know that I value this friendship a lot and it means loads t me . I really hope our friendship withstands th test of time and th trails we may face . I really really hope when we're old , white hair and crinkly and maybe even toothless . We'll still remember each other and still be able t sustain this friendship that we have . And still go out tgt . Maybe just t walk walk or for tea or coffee .. I know we said friends till th end of time . But I really don't have faith in myself .. Idk if i'll screw this up or not .. Every single word . I meant it from th bottom of my heart . I swear it's all true . If you do read this ... Pls let me know .. In some way .. Idk what way .. I'm sure you'll have a way somehow ..

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Cny has Been Boring .. Like seriously damm bored . Lex still owes me a photo . I've been waiting since ace birthday .. I'm sick :( down with th limngtay virus .. Now upgrade dy .. It's called th limngtayphang virus . From grandma (lim) t cousin (Tay and Ng ) t mother (Ng) and now me :( so that's how th name is derived . It's a stupid bug . It's flu but th front of th throat damm pain .. Stupid bug kept me up all th way till two .. Sneeze plus throat pain .. Piggy made tea for me (: drink already temporary soothe th pain . Yaye for piggy (: I had no idea he kept three packs of tea in his bag . Can't wait for school t start ! (: NP ftw ! (:

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So no cny feel .. Just feels like any other day lo . And so today .. Mother woke me up at six plus seven in th morning -.- just t ask if I transfer songs for my bro already or not . Of caZ not luhh . Ytd reach home so Late plus veh tired .. Went back sleep . Woke up at 10 then transfer . Afternoon went t grandma house . Free labour . So basically whole day is take care of my dear . Plus wrap th mushroom and asparagus with bacon . First time putting a baby t sleep and change a baby's diaper . Thankyou dear for giving me that chance . Haha . And so it's 12:15 am . And I'm still at grandma's place . Boreddddddddddd luhh .

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my Pink Sony phone officially died today :( Been preserving it for so long .. And these few days so caught up in things that forgot t charge it . And th on/off button spoil . So yeah . It's dead . Super tired .. Got woken up by th mother talking on th phone .. Then she went out . Then I swept and mopped th floor . * applause * haha . Caz I don't do housework unless super necessary . Went t renew phone contract . Got some super lau pok phone .. Damm lousy .. I didn't know it's so lousy until I explored it . Total five colours but only left silver and lilac .. Got both . Initially th plan was I take purple and my brother take silver . But he want th purple and I like th silver so we swooped . Haha . Th purple is silvery and th silver is white . Th person that choose colour eye got problem . Haha . Including th phone , we got three so called couple items . Hahaha . First is keychain then water bottle than now phone . We said want go buy a new keychain .. See how ba . Haha . Played with ace th whole night thts why so tired .. Grandma went out buy stuff .. Mother cooking . And therefore I stuck with ace . So today I learnt he could feed himself water . Haha . And that Boy bit my finger :( so cute he . I was feeding him biscuit plus watching tv . So was holding a small piece of biscuit and he finish eating what's in his mouth . Then he either move th mouth t my figures or push my hand t his mouth and eat th new bit of biscuit . Ytd was pang Sai juice and today is wee wee juice . Thanks alot man . My shirt super smelly thanks t th pang Sai juice . :( tomorrow have t change bedspread and transfer songs for brother . Therefore . I'm not going back t nh . Haha . Boreddddddddddd ........ Now t hit th sack (: