BOO ! (:

back from APCC . real cool camp I must say . Really really showed us how reliable th bible is and what it says bout stuff . For me , personally I felt that th prayer walk was the best part . It's really a time where can really stop t think and reflect . And just let loose everything . Feel much more free now . Thankyou for making my mosaic life into a beautiful picture . And for taking away all my burdens and worries . Daddy God is the best . First ever time I wrote a letter t Him . During prayer walk I felt rather heavy/bothered . But after that I feel much lighter . It's like can really experience God . Awesomeness . Day two games was crazy . Run around whole Tamah jurong . Then play captain ball . Today went school dance whole afternoon . Now muscle pain . Sleepy now .. Finally can sleep on my bed

BOO ! (:

What are words if you really don't mean them when you say them .... Well I guess it becomes a whole load of scrawlings or noise . What for say it if you don't mean it . It's not a mouth hard heart soft thing .. It's more of a person entertaining you with their words kinda thing . I'm super sick of being entertained all th time . Just say what you mean . Is it that hard . Live in a world of lies if that's what you want . But please don't fill my world with your lies . Lies will only make me fall harder and th impact will be greater when I find out th truth . In " I'm perfect(l)y f(I)n(e) , tru(s)t me " , th word lies can be found . In " (s)(h)(e) be(L)(I)(e)ve(d) " , th words she/ he lied can be found . I don't want t live in your lies anymore . I'm gonna stand up all over again no matter how much effort or strength it takes . This time , you're not gonna bring me down . Instead , I'm gonna let you witness how strong I can be . And I'm gonna make you regret every single one of your actions .

BOO ! (:

STOOPID COCKROACH . I AM DAMM PISSED ALREADY AND YOU WANT T COME MAKE MY DAY EVEN WORSE . FLY IN FROM DUNNO WHICH WINDOW AND OF ALL ROOMS YOU CHOOSE T COME T MINE . STILL STAY AT TH DOOR THERE AND SHI WEI . WAVE YOUR STUPID ANTENA AND LIFT YOUR LEG UP FOR WHAT . TOO BAD . YOU MESSED WITH TH WRONG PERSON . NOW YOU'RE DEAD . NEHNEH . feeling super messed up . Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr . I think I'm really going crazy .. Or maybe even depressed ? Wts . Maybe someday you'll see me in imh . Who knows . I have a very messed up life nao .. Like seriously screwed . Real bad . Idk why I'm even writing all this down when I know nobody comes at all . Except maybe a few . I guess I just need an outlet t vent it all . Idw t hurt my piano anymore . It suffer for a decade dy .. Underwent major op too . Few years back . Gahh . I am going crazy . I need someone t teach me how t be sane .

BOO ! (:

Planned t sleep early in th End sleep late . Woke up early in th end still left house late . Win Liao lo . Take super long time t pack my stuff etc . Reach interchange at 8:25 . Bus comes at 8:32 . By right service start at 8:45 and if serving must reach by 8:30 . Bo Bian then go cab . Lucky Josh willing t share cab .. Didn't expect him t agree . In th end reach at 8:30 and service start at 9:00 . If I know I take bus .. Save Money . I really love my pastor loads . His sermon s are really good and he makes an effort t talk t everybody . Today was talking t him and he ask if I ever thought about why am I studying . Tbh , I have never tot bout it before . Then he went on t talk bout diff stuff like if quit school now what do you think your life will be like , what kind of guy you'll be able t marry , what kind of house , etc . I have never ever thought so far . I think my husband gotta be super patient or got selective hearing . Caz I think I'll irritate him alot ? By singing random songs , talking t myself , doing stupid stuff . And a lot more . He definitely has t be able t tolerate this .. Or maybe by then I change dy . Who knows . Haha . Today's a screwed up day . Here pain there pain . Go toilet dunno how many times dy ..

BOO ! (:

TODAY I SHALL BE NICE AND SAVE ON MY PHONE BILL . SEE IM SO NICE . HAHAHA . WELL I GUESS YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT (: LOOK AT TH DATE MY DEAR AND YOU'LL KNOW (: HAHAHA . OH WAIT . I HAVE UNLIMITED . BUT STILL IM NOT GONNA WASTE IT ON YOU . yes I'm mean (: but I like (: if you don't like too bad . Hahaha . got no nice blogs t read anymore .. It's either change URL and never tell or blog dead or it's private . Secret#2 is so open on her blog dy . So Is not secret anymore . Anne stead with haowen . WTF . after knowing th story I'm so ................. IWANTBANDTHREE :( DAMMIT . I FEEL MORE AT HOME WITH TH CURRENT BAND TWO BECAUSE ALL MY BAND THREE PPL ARE THERE ! :( WHY CAN'T YOU LET ME GO BAND TWO :( GRRRRRRRRRR . LATER GOT PRACTISE . I AM SORRY BUT I AM KINDA NOT LOOKING FORWARD T IT . CAZ TH GUITARIST IS SO ........ CHANGE KEY NEVER TELL ME . AND EVEN WHEN HE DOES TALK HE TALKS T TH FLOOR PLUS NO EYE CONTACT . HOW TH HELL AM I SUPPOSED T KNOW THAT YOU ARE TALKING T ME . GOING OUT WITH MURDERER GANG IN TH AFTERNOON <3 THIS POST IS FULL OF CAPS . LIKE PRACTICALLY TH WHOLE THING . NO IM NOT JIDONG . I JUST LIKE HOW CAPS LOOK . YES IM LOOSING IT (:

BOO ! (:

mummy why you don't want t give me an elder brother :( I'm like jealous of those with elder brothers ? Just when I tot I found one awesome kor kor in church , he turned out t be bloody fake . I used t envy his sis for having such a brother . Now I don't anymore . he is a fking liar . Mummy why can't you see thrru it . Stop asking me why I'm not talking t him and stop asking me t go talk t him . I.HATE.HIM . like super duper hate . I abhor/any other word that means hate him . I hate th fact that I got cheated by him . I trusted him yet he screwed everything up . Thanks for screwing up my life in December bitch . You singlehandedly messed up and me and deb had t clear your stinking mess . When pastor said they were gonna cancel if can't find ppl you know how anxious I was . I bet you don't . You bloody coward . Thank goodness Daddy provided for me and gave me ppl . If it was really cancelled I would hate you even more . I just feeling like shouting in your face t ask you t stfu and go away and stop bothering me . Th fact that mummy still keeps in contact with you irks me . Bloody hell . We are not ATM . You want sell your product go find th richer ppl . I fking hate you . 3:47am . Ahh whatever . I don't care . I don't wanna be th eldest . I rather be th youngest . And I know it's impossible .. So yeah . Grrrrrrrr . I know your secret and I know your secret too and I know your secret three . But I'm not gonna spill . Secret #1 dammit why did I have t find out . Thanks t you . Ask me cook dinner then I flip thru cookbooks then i saw sth inside . Secret#2 I hope you don't have a happy ending . Yes I'm mean . Whateverrrrr . I don't care . Ahh whatever . Get a grip you nut . Stop losing yourself . Gahhhh . Screw it . Stupid . 我不是纸。不是用完丢掉。我是人！应该被珍惜！ Shutup lahh crazy . Go sleep lahh . Yes I'm talking t myself . Yes I'm crazy . Deal with it .

BOO ! (:

Tug of war is a stupid game .. 我不玩了 。。 好想放弃 。。但就是放不了 :( stupid girl . Go sleep lahh . It's 2:44am ! Wtheck are you doing . Stop thinking bout stupid stuff . I don't know about tomorrow I just live from day to day I don't borrow from it's sunshine For its skies may turn t grey I don't worry o'er th future For I know what Jesus said And today I'll walk beside Him For He knows what is ahead Many things about tomorrow I don't seem t understand But I know who holds the future And I know who holds my hand Girl you gotta pull yourself tgt ! Daddy's always holding on t your hand ! Don't worry bout things all by yourself . Stop thinking so much ! Your head will only Hurt more . Now get your head on th pillow and get some sleep . It's three already !