XOXO

Finally knows how it feels like when a mum looks at her sleeping baby in her arms. So precious. 

Met the boy for dinner. Brought me to Lot one cos I never been there before. Went to the rooftop garden after dinz. Poorpoor boy tired out from th day's mugging. Watching him sleep, the feeling is like so precious and don't care what it takes also must protect him. 

With him by my side, be it just a walk down the street or in a shopping center or even a trip to JB, I feel so safe and so comfortable. Because I know he will be there to protect and to take care of me. 

You shower me with so much love and care. More than I can even imagine, more than I deserve. Making me smile, feeding me when I don't feel like eating, buying happy food to cheer me up, giving me manymany hugs to make me feel better, and the list goes on. You're like the bestest thing that's in my life ♡

11days&counting...

And so today marks the 11th consecutive day of meeting you ♡ everyday feels like a fairytale. All the little things that you do, chases away my fears and insecurities. So blessed to have you by my side. My bestest friend and also my dearest boy ♡ 

Thankyou for showering me with so much love and care. Pampering me and treating me like a princess. 

And also, the small small actions that makes me so touched. 

Anything or anywhere with you is also enjoyable. Even a whole afternoon of just watching cartoons. iloveyoubaby♡ 

Looking forward to our JB trip later (: (: (: 

Two is better than one ♡

That song is like supersuper nice. 

Anywayssss. I finally got the answer (: everything's clear now (: 

Everything doesn't seem real and it's like idk what did I even do to deserve a guy like you. One who loves me so and treats me so well (': 

It doesn't matter if we celebrate monthly or yearly, because everyday with you is alr a special day. Because I'm so blessed to have you.

Silly boy really surprised me till I didn't know what to say/react and almost teared. iloveyou baby ♡ 

Being able to see you everyday, be it even for an hour or the whole day, it makes me happy (: 

I may not be perfect or the best gf, but I will try to be the best for you. To be there for you in the good and the bad, and also your personal cheerleader. That I promise you. 

Thankyou for making me smile always and for making me feel so safe. Because I know you'll be there to protect me. 

Learning more about you everyday. 

And it warms my heart to know that you alr planned for the future. Even the meaning behind the design of the ring. Christ centered love. 

有你的感觉真好😊

You make me smile ♡

You, yes you. You make me smile ♡ you make me feel so safe and so protected whenever we're out tgt. 

Be it just a simple impromptu dinner or just an mrt trip or just sitting there together, somehow I feel so safe, protected , loved and special. 

Thankyou for giving in to my cravings, even though you may not be full from eating what I want. 

Thankyou for making me smile, taking care of me, constantly checking if I'm feeling better or not when I'm not feeling well , keeping me warm, cooking for me. 

Honestly, I was really v touched. Came down from shower to find a cup of thaicheese chicken+fries waiting for me. And th chicken was still cut into bite size pieces. See he very 细心 hor. Cos I wasn't feeling well and didn't want to eat lunch. 

Bought B&J for him after dinner with th friends. Silly asked why buy so expensive one. Cos you say buy what I like ma. And th most epic part. Stand in the middle of th road and he feed me icecream. Hahahah.

I'm really really truly blessed to have you ♡  

Love you laaaa ♡ 

(:

It's been two weeks since.. I really want to know the reason why yet I don't know how to even approach the subject.. Say something pls ? Sighs. 

Why do you have the power to make me miss you huh. The little things you do. The small things you rmb abt me. Even stuffs that I don't rmb telling you about, you still rmb. It's all these small things that touches my heart. 

Ytd night I was really happy (: yeah I admit I was disappointed at first when cancel. But then you made the effort to reschedule and fit in an outing. And then even making it happen on the same day again. Even though we didn't do much, it's th simple small things that makes me really happy. Like how I got to know you abit more. Learning more about you everytime we go out. And seeing the kid in you when your icecream came. Super cute. Thank you for still giving in to me and enduring my nonsense and moods. I really felt very bad when you apologized la. Because you really do so much for me. And always making sure that I am happy. Sending me pictures of stitch when you happen to see it while shopping. 

Where to find such a treasure like you. Loveyoula. ♡ 

Cos I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2 & you'll be there

So the last post was like what. Five months overdue. Hahaha didn't know it didn't get published. 

Ahh so life continues.. Intern was super awesome. Now back to the mundane school life... 

You know, when you find a best friend who loves you and takes care of you like an elder brother, Can just scold each other and talk abt the most random things ever, th feeling is just... Idk how to describe it... I just love you deepdeep. 

Hahah how we re-met each other is just funny/weird/idk? Knew him since lower sec but never ever talked to him ever since that event. This year's oac, being agl can just walk anywhere We want. Soooo. Just happened to see him and followed behind calling his name but got ignored. Damm sad. After coming back from oac, it was the comment on a status and th exchanging of numbers then we started talking. So it turns out I always had his number. I don't know how and why. Then blahblahblah , talk alotalot, work tgt, meet In sch. Hahah. 

He knows my weakest and ugliest side yet chooses to stand by me, giving me the encouragement and support and comfort that I need. Instead of giving up on me. I know I can be a super burden when I am at very very low points. 

The person whom I can just be myself infront of. No need to act strong cos I know you'll be there for me to lean on. Thankyou for taking care of me during work. And everything. Watching out for me and stuffs. Looking through my insta, I saw this photo which I posted quite sometime back. "So when the tears stream down my face don't ask me why I'm crying. Just hold me. I want to find someone who won't run away and look me in the eye and say that it's okay. It's not going to be easy but it will get better."

When I broke down, it wasn't easy to say why I was crying. I took a really long time to reply. Yet you never gave up on finding out what happened. You tried ways to cheer me up. Even offered to cook for me. Tbh, I was abit hungry la. Just a little little bit but too moodless to eat.  Being strong was tough cos I didn't want to let the others know. But thankyou for bringing me away, where it was just me and you, where I could let down all the pretenses because you knew what I was going through. And I thank you for the hug and allowing me to sleep on your shoulder. And for reassuring me and encouraging me that all will be better. And just being there for me when I was at my weakest. 

I am really truly blessed to have you in my life. And I'm so glad to have found you and I hope that this friendship will last for eternity long. 

I love you manymanymany. ♡ 

Yet another ycon session has ended. 

To not know most of the boys names yet they know mine. So paiseh. Really glad that the camp touched their lives and they want to come back for more Camps. 

Really proud of them.seeing how they grow. Having buddies that mostly can't walk properly or on walker/wheelchair, they just carry the buddies and support them and it really warms my heart to see that sight. 

Even one/two of my boys, scared of heights but brought his buddy up to HE. Fulfilled his promise to me, overcame his fear and the buddy was happy too. 

On the last day, I heard this sentence "don't tell me last time. No matter how many times you want go toilet, I also will bring you there." Just a simple sentence but somehow it brought tears to my eyes. The buddy is on wheelchair and is scared of troubling people and is really quite heavy.

Seeing how they really love the buddy and the way they take care of the buddy, how not to be proud of them. Some of them really damm zai. 

Seeing the boys talk to their abang and amongst themselves after the camp, somehow just start crying. Really proud of these boys. 

Who says people who commit crimes are bad. Who says they can't change. These boys are living proof of it. All with a big big heart that cares for people(: