i'll be your strength ~

Well . Nahhh . Not really that strong enough during this period :( more like I need someone to be my strength . Haha . Sick sick and more sick . Sighs . So it started out as cough . Now is almost two weeks le . Chu xi night/ chu yi morning when the people all burning paper I almost died . Didn't close window before sleep and all the smoke and stuff in the air . Then woke up and start coughing like siao . Like nonstop cough and was really really bad . Like if it didn't stop then will have asthma again ... It got better then got worse again ... Sad life . Before it even recovered , now diarrhea . Sighhhhhhh . Whyyyy . :( like almost every hour have to go toilet once :( sometime interval long sometimes short :( don't know cause yet ...... Don't know if is the food also . Caz all the people that also eat it got nothing wrong ... Haiii . Maybe is just me . I'm just the weird one Huhh . Dear me , please recover faster . And immune system why you suddenly so weak :( must stronger ! I want my old self back . The never fall sick self .. Idw this keep on sick self :(

when im with you , i'll make every second count

Heh . Today's baby's birthday ! :D dearest baby turns two (: hope my dear baby boy grows up to be a good boy (: he's already super smart . Cannot trick him de . Haha . Went bukit timah market for lunch (: the tau Huey is (Y) . Damm nice . Supersuper smooth . I like . Haha . And my dear stupid surprised me with caramel milk tea (: just left it in the fridge for me to go find out myself . So sweet (: hahaha . Stupid's maturing too (: went to buy udders . Deciding between rum&raisin and cookie&cream . Couldnt decide which to get so asked him . And his reply is (Y) . " get cookie and cream ! Dont get alcohol . Cookie and cream better . Cheaper also " hahaha . So cute right (: so fast grow up le but deep down you're still my baby (: hahaha . Still will always be that small boyboy (: and my small boy's gonna turn 13 in a WEEK's time (: idk what to get for him :( howwwwww :( Coughing like siao now :( virus passed to me by stupid :( really the rate which I'm coughing is mad . Even coughed till tear .. As if chest pain not enough .... Haiii . Hopefully can faster recoverrrr :(

super bad day today ...
first EDCA . seriously luhh . what's your problem you stupid teacher . half the class struggling and there you are zooming away . we ask for help . all you give is stare and then ignore us . you are a teacher for a reason .you're paid to teach . not give attitude . we try so hard to get your attention . and you ignore . that bitch barely raised her hand and you devote all your attention to her . k can . so now you like people that dress like whores/sluts . k can . stupid tiko .

then KE . seriously damm stupid their system . since day one already giving us colour to see .what we do to you . nothing right . me and jac never go is obviously got reason de right .never go for cca is because of s&s . and that's like what 3 or 4 times only . and you say our attendance like shit and not giving us any points . k can . in the beginning already say very clearly that we wednesday cannot make it . and by accepting us into KE means you already accept the fact that we cannot commit on wednesdays . then now . you choose new comm . for VP you put some girl that is same case as us . only that she cannot come on mondays and just go on wednesdays . but then again . even the teacher dont know who she is and she come also just go talk to seniors . what kind of nonsense is this . not saying that me and jac want post or anything . but where is the fairness . you say our attendance like shit and give us warning . then your dear darling vp dont get anything . WHAT IS THIS . and you all lousy to that extent that have to bribe people to stay in the cca . " if give you position in main comm will you be more committed to the cca " WTF . WHAT NONSENSE IS THIS . is bribery luhh . say already more pek chek only ...
shall see what happens on wednesday . will it be an uprising/rebellion or will everything go smoothly .

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Haiii . Phone spoil again . Same problem again . Don't want make sound . Exam in a month's time . So not prepared . To stay or to quit KE .. Really tempted to quit ... Feel so lost . Stupid feeling . K wtv Idw care . Face getting worse again . Siannnnnnnnnnn .

too jiro wan too

Yupp so it's now 2012 . One year pass so fast . So many things happened . All th ups and the downs . I'm sure they all happened for a reason . Through it all ,I guess did grow and learn stuff ? Learnt that I suck at planning . Will stress Alot alot . But last time got WILLIAM LEE . And we plan event also never so tou tong . Everything all go smoothsmooth . that's really like strength compliment weakness thingy . yuppp . Soooo . PULSE EVENT . was glad that it went smoothly (: first ever event that COOL organized (: glad to see th rest having fun also . Then thanksgiving that time , got th paper which said " give thanks for someone from school " . Tbh . There is no particular someone . Is more of like a lot of someones. All too precious to pick out just one . My BFFF & SEITH , you guys were the ones that came to mind first . Thank God for the both of you (: for always being there . No matter school or personal stuff . Always there But most importantly , Thank God for him (: for being so so awesome (: for keeping me safe . For blessing me with so much . And for really letting me experience you in many situations . For the peace and comfort . And your love <3 thankYOU for the cross <3

ohh see see <3

Yepppp . So camp was last week . But still . Fun (: Relived FOC times (: just with different people . Forever with nana . Foc , oac , trial camp . Even roypa also know . See le then will give th face . Ohwell . Foc confirm not same le . Love deardear alot (: while waiting for night walk let me lie on her sleep . Haha . Then during camp whenever not in groups confirm talking to each other . Idk bout next year . But let's make whatever time we have left count (: Was telling Jan if had to guy girl pair for night walk and if have to choose from own group , I want go with alvis and really in th end they group us together . So qiao . Haha . So go walkwalk . When in front of close Friends , will tend to show real feelings more . Both scared but he still brave (: do almost everything . Nice friend (: haha . While waiting for th rest to finish went sit at kerb there sleep. Sleep halfway suddenly cough alot then got one hand come pat me (: hehehe . Turns out to be huaihui <3 at first got bigbig gap between us but after that no gap anymore then orhorh till everybody finish . Then play more games th next day then me happy that jiajia like her present (: wheeeee (: everybody going overseas now :( I also want lehhhh :(

LOVE

i like how past few weeks sermon and msges from people tie in nicely and fit in nicely (: it just makes everything nicer in a way ? like how can just have more time to think about everything. and just reflect ? these few weeks , the word LOVE just seems to pop out . it’s like the main message of everything. below are just some stuff that i took away . it’s really like back to basics . but the whole meaning just became so much clearer.

what is Christmas ? it isnt bout presents and lights and everything . but it’s all about Jesus . and th greatest gift of all : LOVE . He could have been born at a later time where his death could be more merciful but no . He was born there and then so as to identify with every pain and suffering that we go through. He chose to suffer with us and for us . in all the sufferings, He went beyond the demands of suffering into the demands of love. He is love . He gave His son for us as he could not bear to watch millions of souls trapped in hell eternally .
Christmas is not just a birth of a baby but the birth of a promised one that will save us.
so you say. why was he not born in an inn or some high class place . reason being , He was born in the stable next to lambs and other animals to show that one day He will be the lamb that will be sacrificed for us . first people that knew about the birth were shepherds and at that time they were considered the lowest class people and unclean and unworthy. this just goes to show that no matter who we are and no matter how the world sees us , God loves us (:
everyone wants to be accepted and loved the way they are. but how often can we really accept people just the way they are . that is human nature to judge and all . but God accepted us just as we are . for me , i do try . but it is definitely not one of the easiest tasks . one of our greatest needs is to be loved and God is love and only he can meet this need .
let’s say you watched this movie where it shows a man abusing his kids and beating up his wife and doing so much evil. yet in the end, he strikes the jackpot at the casino and th movie ends with him being rich and happy. we would expect that he would be punished but yet he goes away a happy man. at this time we may be questioning , “where is justice?”.
It is said that when we die, there will be judgement. if our life was played out as a movie for all the people to see, what will we see ? anger? laziness? shameful events ? personally , i think that mine will be of stuff that i dont want people to know . yes my life isnt all that perfect and have done wrong at one point or another .
after watching the previous movie, we expect the guy to be punished. but after watching our own movie, wont there also be consequences for our actions ? It is said that THE WAGES OF SIN IS DEATH. but God does not want us to suffer in hell . and to save us He gave up His only son. One death to save many . our greatest problem/fear is death in hell. but it is this child that can make a difference. With this love, death will not have the last say but God will have the last say .
Who else can give us this love except God .

So what does Christmas really mean to you? Is it just the dazzling lights, or the hustle and bustle of preparing present, or just another holiday? There is a very special gift. A gift that is FREE for all. The greatest gift in the world. The gift is LOVE. The unconditional LOVE of God, is the best gift ever. Love so great that he sent his one and only son for us. For this purpose, Jesus was born in the manger to bring God’s LOVE to us. Jesus was born to bring all of mankind closer to God. Even if you travel to the ends of the earth, you are unable to find a greater LOVE than this. This is better than all the riches of the world. It is waiting outside your heart, waiting for you to open up your heart to accept this wonderful gift. Whoever believes in Him, shall not parish but have eternal life. He is the BEST gift ever. :)

NEVER ALONE . NEVER UNLOVED . FOREVER LOVED .