I'm deflated... Like seriously tired... 

Breakdown after breakdown after breakdown... Enough tears to fill buckets (or bottle). 

Work has become a super negative environment .. The ugly side of them finally unleashed .. Attack after attack .. 

I'm tired... Tired of only being seen when needed.. Other times who cares about you.. So what if I don't go drink and all what nots with all of you. Does that make me not worthy of your friendship. If so, how shallow you are. To think I've even treated you as a friend. 

Ugh. What's wrong with this world. I'm mad I'm sad I'm angry. Idk laaaaa. I need the positivity back.. 

Home ♡

"This is Home, truly
Where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me
Where that river always flows
This is home, surely
As my senses tell me
This is where I won’t be alone
For this is where I know it’s home" - Home

Home has always been my favorite NDP song since I was a kid. 

Without all that LKY did for us, would we even have this home. 

Whatever he did, country was always on his mind. 

Thank you for leaving behind so many legacies for us. 

Tbh, I've only read about you in textbooks and politics/history was never my thing. All I knew was that you were someone important in shaping Singapore and making her how she is today. 

My mum always said, "without LKY, Singapore is nothing". Well I guess ppl of their generation all feel that way because they experienced the transformation. How we slowly developed under the leadership of a great man and his team. 

These few days, it's like a history crash course. Watching and re watching tv broadcasts of LKY's works and reading various articles shared on social media. 

You showed us that in this selfish world, love still does spring eternal. I really like the love story of Mr & Mrs Lee. The dedication, the commitment and the steadfast love. 

I never remembered queuing so long for something in my life. It really didn't feel like 2-3h. We just moved along with the queue. Seeing how everyone clicked and could just start talking is indeed heartwarming. Singaporeans, foreigners, all united as one. Was quite surprised to see banglahs in the queue too. 

Thank you for leaving behind so many legacies. Water, transport, clean&green, law&order, education, armed forces. Thank you for making this home such a safe and good place for us. 

You've fought the good fight. There aren't enough thankyous to thank you for all that you did. You will always be remembered. 

Thank you Sir ♡ 

"Another day without your smile, another day just passes by.
But now I know, how much it means. 

For you to stay, right here with me. 

I wanna grow old with you.
I wanna die lying in your arms.
I wanna grow old with you.
I wanna be looking in your eyes.
I wanna be there for you, sharing in everything you do.
I wanna grow old with you. "

Do you know, being in your arms and in your embrace is the safest place I can ever be. Feeling the warmth from you, knowing you'll protect me from all the shit that the world may throw. 

You let me see how to love a person and how to put others more before self. You help me become a better me. 

"Real love is an unconditional commitment to an imperfect person. It isn't just a euphoric, spontaneous feeling--it's a deliberate choice--a plan to love each other for better and worse, for richer and poorer, in sickness and in health. Real love is about weathering the storms of life together. Love is so much more than some random, euphoric feeling. And real love isn't always fluffy, cute, and cuddly. More often than not, real love has its sleeves rolled up, dirt and grime smeared on its arms, and sweat dripping down its forehead. Real love asks us to do hard things--to forgive one another, to support each other's dreams, to comfort in times of grief, or to care for family. Real love isn't easy--and it's nothing like the wedding day--but it's far more meaningful and wonderful. 

 "No one falls in love by choice, it is by chance. No one stays in love by chance, it is by work. And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by choice." "

Love isn't easy. &it definitely isn't always fluffy and cute and ohsomagical. But thankyou for forgiving me time and time again. & for always being so supportive and always there in times of joy and grief and everything. 

Thankyou for never ever leaving me. Despite all the unfluffy and ugly times. 

You helped me see how much I can truly love . By chance we met, by choice we stay together. I give you my unconditional commitment. To love you always. From now till the end of time. To love and to cherish and to hold, in sickness or in health, for richer or for poorer, till death do us part. 

My gonggong boy ♡ 

Falling asleep in your arms & waking up to you has become one of my favourite things. 

So fast half a year passed le. 

Sometimes you make me sosososososo mad but idk why I can never stay mad at you. 

Thankyou for doing all the small small things to make my life better. 

Using your hand to cover th metal pole/any potential surface where I may bang my head against on the train , holding on to me so I won't fall, making sure I feel better whenever it hurts, not getting mad & walking away when I reach th point of super madness where it's tears and biting/scratching. 

 Loveyou much more than words can describe. 

Even though like we spend so much time tgt, I still always wish that we can have more time tgt. Time always seems to pass toooooo quickly. 

I really miss the days where all we did is just watch movie/video/anime & sleep all day long. Or even the impromptu outings. Work is just mehhhhh. 

Now that sch start for both of us, the time we have also lesser alr... 😔

Should have more than 24h in a day... 

Five and a half years seems like a really long time now... But I'm glad we're alr starting to slowly planning for our future tgt. From the type of deco to kids and even holiday destinations. I cannot wait for the day where we start our own family together. I know you feel the same way too. &if we work hard enough, who knows. Maybe we can get married even earlier. 

Everyday feels like an adventure with you. Thankyou for exploring the world together with me step by step. &for not abandoning me along the way. & for trying to understand the way that I am. 

More than that

"I will love you more than that. I won't say the words then take them back" - More Than That, Backstreet Boys

Because you make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world just by being yours. Make me feel soooo loved. 

You protect me and make sure I'm safe. Check on me whenever we don't meet to make sure I eat.

 Putting rice on my spoon so that I'll eat the rice instead of just ingredients. Feeding me when I don't feel like eating or when we're sharing Sth. 

Giving me manymany hugs to make me feel better. 

Being ever so patient with me. 

Encouraging me and being by my side through everything.

And the list just goes on and on. 

Even before sch starts, you alr make it a point to pick me up on weekday nights after school. You're really my sweetest boy ever. 

So blessed to be your girl. And words can never describe how much iloveyou. Thankyou for facing all my storms and battles with me, being my source of strength and support. 

iloveyoubabychanchan ♡ 

You teach me many things and help me improve as we go along. Helping me see my flaws and helping me to improve them bit by bit. Thankyou for letting me know more about you. And being the one that knows most about you. Thankyou for letting me into your world. 

You're more than just my boy. You're my boy, elder brother I never had, bestest friend, everything combined into one. At times, may be unbearable but thankyou for being patient with me and always never failing to put a smile on my face. Even when I'm mad at you, you never fail to make me smile again. And I can never stay mad at you. You mean the world to me ♡ I believe we can work out and live the rest of our lives tgt (: six years may seem like a really long time. But we'll make it through and then start our own family. I know we'll be able to. 

1 2 3 4

Hey baby (: 

idk if you'll see this but ohwells. 

Do you know this picture is super precious to me? Cos this is the very first picture that you took on your phone and you say want take de. 

So many songs that can sing to you, but for now, plain white t's 1 2 3 4 describes everything so well. Go listen to it if you're reading this hehe. 

12 more days till you're home. Supersuper glad that the number is finally getting so small. But not glad that cannot contact you that much :( back on the hunt for wifi cos touring Europe. And not all hotels have wifi.. Uncontactability sucks so bad. That sometimes cannot even fall asleep... May all the hotels you're staying in for the next 7 days all have wifi. Missing you so bad :( 

Miss your voice, your hugs, our cuddling times and everything. Cannot wait for you to come back home. 

It's finally July ~ 

27 more days till my baby comes home 😁 

Somedays it's still hard but I'm glad the number has reduced to a not so big and bearable number. 

Another thing that's been helping me through is our daily skype sessions. Being able to see your face and knowing you make the effort to make this girl's wishes of seeing you everyday come true. It makes me happy. And being able to talk to you everyday too. 

And even though you're 6.8k miles away and your sun rises later, you still manage to make me feel so special, so loved and still always there for me. Making me smile and cheering me up even. 

Thankyou for making me feel so special and sometimes even like a princess. For feeding me with so much foof. You make me feel like I'm the luckiest girl on earth cos I have you ❤️ 

Cannot wait for you to come home. Counting down the days till you return.