You shoot me down , but I won't fall

December. Indeed a month full of thanksgivings. Despite the fact that there was CT to dampen the mood.
Really didn't have the motivation to study but thankful for the loves that kept encouraging me and also for Fangyou that helped me out when I didn't understand stuff(:

Dec camp! Shit happens. Moving on.. so proud of the boys (: (: seeing how they grew and how they take care of the buddies. And also how they bonded with each other. Hearing them share and how they want to come back and help again. Somehow it just touches your heart and warms your heart.

Had quite a special Christmas this year. Starting with the candlelight service where COOL was COOL again :D all tgt and suan-ing the leader (: really miss those times.
this year, Instead of the normal friends/family at someone's house or cafe, went to sentosa for Christmas (:
First time kena drag and throw into the sea. and also first time trying martini.
Short but fun time there (:
Really wow-Ed by Derek jnr and zen's house.
Derek can bake. Tarts, logcake. All like those that you can buy in shops. At first thought he was kidding. But really all made by him.
Zen's house is freaking big. And had the honor of having the "king" cook dinner for us. Even though its just Maggie,hotdog and crab stick. Thankful for the time that we could have.

The boys have really grown :')


Babygirl, even though I'll never know how you'll look, always know that iloveyou. Was looking forward to your arrival to this world. Just two months plus more. But I guess stuff happens and sometimes circumstances are just blah.
I'm sure you'll have lots of fun with the angels. Endless days of fun, joy and laughter. A place where you'll be all healthy and strong. A place full of rainbows. Till we meet again....

Even on my weakest days, I'll get a little bit stronger

was randomly searching for stuff and came across that song (: a little bit stronger (:
Yes. Even on my weakest days, I'll get a little bit stronger!

Finally managed to really sleep. Without any disturbances. Well I guess partially is due to the fact that turned data off. And also was really tired from all the happenings.

Problem upon problem upon problem... So many problems. Sighs.
Friday morning was really the last straw. Like how much can one withstand. Friday just felt like shit and head in all places but what I was supposed to do. Almost missed the mrt stop too. Didn't even realize till the last minute..

Somehow the song "above all" played in my head. Went to watch the video and after the first few sentences, started tearing. Yes indeed, You are above all things. You are in control of everything. Thankyou for reminding me tht I'm not alone and I don't have to shoulder all of this alone. You are always there to share whatever load I have.
Under the related videos , the song "in Christ alone" was like screaming click me! My comforter, my all in all. Thankyou for using the songs to speak to me and also act as a comfort.

I guess things started picking up from there. Turned off phone cos didn't want to see anything else at all. And so the lazy bum went gym. Like what momo said, running releases some idk what thing and really felt better after that. Plus the awesome lunch to follow (:
And saw MJ and Weijie on the way home (: (:

And really thankful for the sleep. Reached home and crashed. Only woke up this morning.