One part of the toughest thing through this period is living in different times from the boy & being apart for so long. It's like his goodnight to my good morning. Finally can relate so much to Simple Plan's Jetlag. Waking up to your sunset. Missing you really so bad :( 57days; 15down, 42 to go. Time is really passing toooo slowly :( it really feels like forever alr. I'd give anything to have you come back home now... Even if it was cramps for a whole month, it doesn't matter. Anything to have you come back home. He says this is just a challenge & we'll just get stronger. But there's so many other ways. This is just too torturous :( it really hurts so so bad on days where I just miss you so much. Supermegaultra hate this challenge. On days where things suck too much, if only I could call you, if only I could meet you then. But you're 6.8k miles away. With every 'ding', I hope it would be you. Do you know how precious all our conversations are... But sometimes when I get the feeling like it's half hearted reply, the feeling just sucks . I know you're there with friends, playing or even doing other stuffs then that's why. But the feeling just sucks. 

Ever since you went overseas, everything's just been like bad. I promised I'll be strong. But somedays I really wanna just give up on everything. I mean I'm like trying to get up and get back on track again. 

For starters , uni application done. Just waiting for the result now. 

Job and everything else, I really don't know what to do... Screwed up the interview so so bad..

 I don't know what to do with my life :( I'm a mess. A bigbig mess.