two deaths in one day . what is it with the world . one hanged herself one jumped . both around th same time somemore . seriously . reason behind their deaths , bullying . then again brings back to th question . wtf is wrong with this world . if you were th bully and found out that they died caz of you how would you feel . if it was me , i would be like super super guilty .
ugh . i just dont know . suddenly it just feels like life is so fragile ..... like anyone can die anytime .
im scared . i really am . i dont want to loose anybody . its like ... idk how t describe this feeling .. it feels wrong and sick somehow . its like not even related to me but somehow im just affected . is this how th world is like ? is th world really that bad ? idk .
what ian said is true .. who knows . if we didnt have God , who knows . instead of them dying , we might be th ones dead . th pressure . th idk what . used to experience this . th feeling just sucks so bad . everyday i'll just be like in a super bad mood and i can just shout at anybody and just start crying. just think . in singapore , it's mild . in ang moh countries , its so so so much worse . imagine if we already cant take th mild ones , if in ang moh land , i dont know how i'll survive . maybe i'll even end up like them in that situation ?
im really scared . like what if one day it really happens . like i loose someone really close t me . i think i'll just loose it altogether . my biggest fear now is loosing my grandma . other than me , ace will also go crazy . caz he's also super attached to her . imagine the torture he has to go through as a kid if it really happens any time soon . which i obviously dont want it to . but i cant tell th future . idk what's gonna happen .
life is like so fragile . suddenly this world doesnt seem that safe anymore . it's like we're hanging onto a thread . one that can suddenly snap anytime . safe or unsafe . fragile or not . idk .........
what ian said is true .. who knows . if we didnt have God , who knows . instead of them dying , we might be th ones dead . th pressure . th idk what . used to experience this . th feeling just sucks so bad . everyday i'll just be like in a super bad mood and i can just shout at anybody and just start crying. just think . in singapore , it's mild . in ang moh countries , its so so so much worse . imagine if we already cant take th mild ones , if in ang moh land , i dont know how i'll survive . maybe i'll even end up like them in that situation ?
im really scared . like what if one day it really happens . like i loose someone really close t me . i think i'll just loose it altogether . my biggest fear now is loosing my grandma . other than me , ace will also go crazy . caz he's also super attached to her . imagine the torture he has to go through as a kid if it really happens any time soon . which i obviously dont want it to . but i cant tell th future . idk what's gonna happen .
life is like so fragile . suddenly this world doesnt seem that safe anymore . it's like we're hanging onto a thread . one that can suddenly snap anytime . safe or unsafe . fragile or not . idk .........
but one thing's for sure is that im really scared ....
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