i.dont.know.

How to choose . Between training and pulse . There's not even a choice ! Because training camp and foc is compulsory . Go training camp = cannot go worship prac . Which means two months no play . Saw the disappointment in yang's eyes but he still very understanding and say it's okay . But it's not okay . I feel bad luhh ! And now opening up the planner I saw prep camp + actual foc got one of the day is Sunday . Tell me now how . That Sunday just so happens to be the Sunday that we have to go to the new cells . And yet again have to disappoint yang . I really don't know how . Both important to me . Yet I can't make a choice of which to go because one is compulsory ! But the other is a responsibility . ugh ! This WEEK's challenge : love the unlovable . Now I'm like super angry with myself already . If don't love self how to love others . Ugh . Confirm cannot meet the challenge one luhh ! Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh