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Just depends how you look at it . :D: can be happy face and at th same time a sad face . So .... S&S is over . That's like one chapter closed . Smiles joy tears laughter fun everything . Memories to keep . Three months of work . Yupp . Waiting for the videos to be up . Tbh .when th curtains opened and half th LT was empty I was kinda disheartened ? Like they all just come to watch their friends perform then after that leave . Are we not worthy of their attention . Everything we went through since the start was just for this . Amount of tears shed can like become river for some country le . For th past few months there were this group of people that were always there for me ever since the very start of it all . Azhar , Clara , Varina , Jacqueline , Si Jia , Zijian , Prescilla , Ian , Alee , Weijie , Jan . These few people kept me going and I'm really grateful for them (: we cried we smiled we laughed we played . But through it all , I guess indeed we did grow closer (: thankyou for your ears and hugs and everything (: love you <3 And so CT next week . So not prepared . So dead . parents plus some people giving additional stress . Plus no motivation at all . Really really dead . Today was yet another roller coaster I would say .ups and downs th whole day . Broke down just now ... It just came just like that and poof . And th pain sets in . You know me you will know when I'm irritated/agitated/sad th idk what nonsense thing will start to hurt ALOT . so th pain intensified . Th more I think th more it hurt and th intensity increase . Sigh . I don't know . Messed up much . Yes I would say so . Messedupgirllivinginhermessedupworld :(