and th fun that F1 goes through :D
cant make one complete gif caz th site only allows 20 frames at one time D:
and th awesome photographer took 40 (:

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yupp so this place is back to safeness . before idk how th world discovered it . back to the safe place where i can just rant bout anything and everything and dont have to worry bout unwanted people reading it anymore . tbh . i have no idea how hayden etc etc managed t come here . and you want to use what i say here against me , well you cant anymore . hah .

so ... a week has passed . tomorrow's friday already . today's one of the better days . where there's chem :D and maths . maths tutorial teacher is like so so so so so so much better than th lecturer . she explain everything so clearly . in a short and sweet way . whereas th lecturer is write on transparency and go on and on and on . like tell some story and no one gets it anyway . i guess obc is like th more interesting module for this sem .. and hopefully can A for it . really hope so . really need t do super well for this sem t pull up gpa :( kind of disappointed with what i got ...
moving on ... forgot what me and F1 was talking bout during maths tutorial then reply him with " no . dont you rmb im antisocial cold etcetc " then was kinda touched by his reply ? haha . once jiahao told me this . is what people think that important . well . maybe to him, th kind coolcool one it doesnt matter .. but sometimes even though i say that i dont care but i really do care sometimes ... maybe i think too much ? maybe is just caring too much ? idk ... he also said . people only look at cover . yes that i agree with . covers may be decieving . is the content that matters. can we all not be superficial monsters that judge covers ... yahh . i admit at times i do judge covers also . but i do try t understand th content also . personally, my cover is what you call antisocial blahblahblah . that's caz i have a wall . there's a wall built there . idw to let people know too much lest they make use/idk what again . idw to be that vulnerable to people . call it selfish or what idk . it's not a very stable wall . actually it's kinda flimsy .. to th extent that i actually let calvin see a bit through th wall today . nana told me that people were like suprised/stun/idk what t see me smile . like hello . im human . i do smile ... it's just those people that have already conquered the wall that will always see it . and know bout all my nonsense . hehe . well . im trying . trying to break out . i have moved . i did move . im really trying . stop slamming me back down .
what i super hate now is people asking me how it's like between me and colleen . like seriously ... i already decided to let it go . mummy also say let it go . since idw t care anymore can you stop asking ... tbh . is she too sensitive and think too much on her own part . i swear i didnt do anything at all .

super miss baby :( havent seen him in like so so so so long .. like throughout whole holiday also never see. sad die me D: only one day when i came home i saw my toy car in th living room then i asked mama why it's there then she said baby came and went to my room and take th car himself .. i super miss baby now :( :( :( i want see baby like soonnnnnnnnn .
stupid going camp next week D: gonna miss stupid so much luhh . nobody entertain me D: for like 3-4 days D: D: D: got th whole room to myself . but so lonely :( :(

LIGHTNING :D

title has totally no link to post . but oh well . dont care . hehe .
and so today 2nd day of school .. yesterday was accent day . and today maths and physics day D: and tomorrow will be a super nonsense day D: that stupid in my class again D: grrrrrrrr . stupid school .. accountancy and lsct so many people . but why suaysuay must same class as you again . grrrrrrrrrr . angry is me .

went piano-ing with bff and th rest :D played for bout half an hour . then back t th land of no reception ... teacher no let me listen music D: first you take away azhar and ryan and then next you no let me listen music . school of IS seriously super screwed . music is like energy source. if not hear you talk i confirm fall asleep . electech is like super physics . super dont like it D:

teachers with accents = hard to understand . local teachers = like lullaby ... gahh . this sem is like maths maths and more maths ... can die ..
not looking forward to tomorrow . not at all :( let's hope that th accountancy people will be nice ...

went for worship chalet over th weekend . like a weird only .. what they talk about is like mainly for main comm people .. and i also not in main comm . dont know they ask me go for what ... and then th sermons during th chalet was good . but then missed out on so much caz keep going to toilet D: but thank goodness that daddy was there then he take care of me for th time we were there . hehe . even went out to buy medicine for me :D it was kind of a good weekend i guess ? no wifi no connection with outside world no worries no nothing . just stay there relax and think of nothing at all . sounds like escaping huhh .
tired much :(

idk how in th world this hidden place became found .....
anyway . just so you know . reason why i join society . simple . two words . FAMILY, LOVE. through foc can really see th love and bond between th sgls and agls and aagls etc . i remember telling kelly that i can see th love and th bonds and i want that also .
why am i happier with sgls ... simple . reason being can really feel th love . for own batch is like oh okaay lo that kind of feeling . we always emphasize on family . must be family . but seriously luhh . personally i feel that th family feel is not there . is all clique clique clique . yahh say want mix . but th bond already there le . it isnt easy to chup in . whole batch so many quiet people . not only me . why they can get away with it . like what kimleng say how will i feel . you dont know right . you dont know what nonsense my body is giving me now right . i have to sit there enduring the cold and th pain and th people beside me are asking me to go outside and warm up first . i really really really felt like walking out on th whole thing . and stupid dipsy just left me there to die .. thanks uhh ... but really . th person that's been enduring all my nonsense and pushing me along th way jiu shi dipsy le . whatever problems that come he also know . he really really really help alot alot alot .and i really thank him and appreciate him alot for that . th person that approach from the start and then say whatever problems can just tell him . from day idk what till now . he's always there . never leaving . even though sometime never reply texts but really really really thankful for being that source of strength through this whole thing . despite having own problem and stress and everything, he still helps me alot alot . and i really greatful for that . like really really really appreciate everything . even when i cry and no one else knows, he knows. he also gets stressed up and stuff but he never turns away . forever there . hopefully after this whole thing ends, we still can be like talking like normal . just content of convo change .. from work to other stuff ..

today was kinda fun i guess (:
woke up early and nua on th bed till became late . but still reach school before 10 . hah .
dipsy was super stun when gave him his present (: hehe . should have given it on sunday .. since he stay so near church .. oh well . he was like omgomgomg for idk how long and super happy . hahaha . azhar also same reaction . so cute luhh they (:
then whole time during practise dance dance dance . then now knee/leg pain again . sigh .
bussed to church with dipsy (: new bus buddy :D haha . no awkward silences and th journey like pass so fast .crapped th whole time . like everything and anything . and he got th whole list of who have what condition thing then went to google mine for idk what reason . then read out symptoms and then look at me . and then say yes or no . then teach how to figure out password that th school gave us . hehe . he like some super big kid .
oh well. saw dumbdumb brother today :D :D dumbdumb dyed his hair and cutted it . no more nice nice fringe .. but still . got to see him after so so so so so long . but never get t talk . sian . at least now he replies texts and msn :D
gonna meet maureen , candy , akalya , deric , randy , jon , jocelyn , li ming later :D happy is me :D must must must take more photos ! that time take de all never upload D: dont know with who also .
super tired . havent do script also . sian max . sigh . oh well . sleep more important :D hehehe

tbh . idk why it as to come all down to this . oh so you want to talk about appropriateness . so today leaving early for me was inappropriate but for you the previous it was ? what nonsense are you talking about. on monday . for th showcase. you left early just to get a freaking referral letter for your face. cant you wait till practise was over. is your stupid letter that important . so leaving early for that is appropriate luhh . we had to wait for you to come back before we could start another round. you think you damm big uhh . then on another occasion. SS had practise and he could go for th whole thing and in th end you went out with him till 4pm . and he went late for practise. so you think that that is appropriate . omg . use your brains luhh please . you want compare appropriateness . why dont you look at yourself first before saying others . when point finger at others. four fingers are pointing back at yourself . think before you speak . like seriously . idk what game you trying to play . idk what's gotten into you . seriously . things are getting out of hand . im sorry but it has come all down to this . you broke it once . you broke it again .there's this saying once bitten twice shy . but you had two chances . and now . no more . enough is enough . i had enough . im already controlling . idw this to become like some super serious thing . but seriously . i really think that there's no room to talk anymore . idk who you have become . and soon a wall will be errected to block you out . by that time it'll be too late for you to do anything to salvage it . it takes two hands to clap . if you're going to blow your chances everytime, i dont see why i should be so nice to you anymore . have fun on your own . this really is it .

disappointed much ...

You . Of all people . And I thought you would know how I'm like . Well . I guess I was wrong . You give me your fked up attitude and still dare t ask what's wrong . Since you dont want t answer people just say you don't know anything luhh . Stupid . Today totally ruined thanks t you . Idk what game you trying t play here . I'm not interested in your game . Dinner was like WOAH . Laugh till stomach pain . And all thanks t you , my happy bubble just popped .