BOO!(:

the contents of the post is not meant for anione or any human or wad. its juz venting frustration n crap stuffs. so ya. its not meant for anyone at all. even if u tink im lying den too bad,ya. caz its not meant for anyone at all.

my blog = my life = wad i wan. so if u dun lyk emo posts den scram. tankyew
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i finally noe why ppl go cut themselves. if u never try it u'll tink its stoopid bud after you do you'll understand why. aft cutting urself all u tink about is the pain you inflicted on urself and nothing else. n it sort of takes you away from reality for sum time. helps you forget everything tt's hurting you. bud aft tt u look at the scars and den the fear of letting ur parents find out caz they'll kill you. its lyk you'll be tinkin worth it or not. i get scars budden i forget all my pain n stuffs for a period of time. kaays i noe its stoopid. bud yea. tt's all.

well a certain sumone's/ppl's blog helped me alot. frm reading his/hers/its/their posts gained lots of stuffs. n so shall koup parts n come up wid sth since today i freakin moodless.

"love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, yet trusting them not to"
wads hurt? wads love? i haf no freakin idea. yea. i trusted you n tt you wouldn't hurt me bud time and time again you betrayed the trust. thx alot ya.

" i want to cry, i really do, but i guess i just dun wanna give you the satisfaction of knowing that you've hurt me again "
inside of me. no one noes wads goin on. no one except me myself and i and god. he noes wad im goin thru rite nw n all the super tough times im going thru. sumtimes i juz bottle everything up inside of me den force myself not to cry bud yea tt doesnt help a single bit at all. i may look happy n strong on the outside bud actually on the inside im actually veh weak. not strong at all. i may appear happy bud tt's not who i am. dun belive den too bad. go tink. wad cca im in n wad we do durin cca. we muz be in character. n even if u super moodless or wad n ur character is the opposite you still need to force yourself to be in character. tt's how i do it. i juz dun wanna cry in front of all of ur. i dun wanna let your tink ur succeded in hurting me. bud u noe wad i juz cant help it. sumtime i juz break down n cry real bad. ya. so now tt ur noe all tis isnt it satisfaction to all of ur tt ur noe ur succedded in hurtin me time n time again. well i hope you do. caz i really appreciate all the hurt. it juz makes me even more depressed den i already am. thx alot. crying. does it solve anything at all? no. it juz helps me sleep. i cant slp properly at nite animore. i'll juz cry myself to sleep. crazy rite. well tt's wad i am. so i dun care. well now i dun juz cry at nite. its lyk thruout the day so many times i feel lyk crying. well it gives certain ppl satisfaction. bud you tink i care. NO. i dun. juz have all the satisfaction n all tt u wan. i dun gif a shyt animore.

" you can't stop loving a person, but you can learn to live without them"
well ya. its my emotions isn't it. i haf the freedom to choose ya. it isnt easy bud i'll try to get rid of the damm feeling n let you go. its no point holding on. its lyk the kite. it wan fly den u pull the string den will break wad. so is no point.lyk wad a certain sumone said when you love sumone you should set them free. i juz realised i been decieving myself for the past few months. not only to myself bud to others. n how. i kip saying i got over it all bud yea tt's all a lie n i haf been living somfortably in it till i recently visited reality again n finally saw what you really wanted. so ya. i'll let you go. thx for all the memories bud yea. the hurt its all still dere.


okaay. enuf crapping. shall go print lyrics now. before i loose face in front of all the taiwan ppl n principals. who cares aniway. already lost it all last week. juz broke down during drama n cried in front of all the ppl in drama.

WANTED!!
SUMONE WHO CAN HELP ME LEARN HOW TO BE HAPPY N SMILE AGAIN. I LOST ALL ABILITY N SENSE TO SMILE AND BE HAPPY. N I REALLY NID SUMONE TO HELP ME LEARN HOW TO BE HAPPY AGAIN. GUY OR GAL I DUN CARE. JUZ GOT SUMONE TO HELP ME N TEACH ME CAN LE. IM REALLY GOIN CRAZY ALREADY. SO PLS. SUMONE HELP ME.

thx alot ya. you crushed my world n now ur leavin after u destroyed everything. i dun tink its fun at all. bud in aniway thx alot. now i noe who to trust n who not to. really appreciate all the destruction n hurt u caused. my life i s in a mess now. i appreciate it alot. a big thankyou to you.