freakin tired . izzit juz cold or im havin a fever again . blah . i dun care aniway .what's going on . i dunno .im tired . im mixed up . i dun wanna think anymore .got back all th papers except chinese . wtheck is th stoopid teacher doin . i wan my paper luhh . oral also last min tell us . now dun even let us have a chance to check th paper . i failed 3 . and maybe chinese too . maybe th tiredness and sadness is written all over .i dun understand why she doesnt scold me like she usually does but instead treats me so nicely .i dunno why . i wan her to scold me instead .for not doing well and i dunno .omg . where has th old me gone to ? th new me is scaring myself . th tolerance level of pain n sadness n stress is lyk super th high . its slowly building up higher and higher and i have no idea who to turn to anymore . its lyk now im trapped in a place .where there's no one else .no one to turn to . not even my parents or cell leaders . not even roger . or huiwen . needless to say . you . how am i supposed to get rid of all this pain . i dunno . i wont turn to hurting myself .i wont cry anymore .i dunno .why am i running .running away frm all this .retreating further and further into th darkness instead of searching for tt light of hope .why cant i be like wad i wrote in th compo .only fonseka will know what im talkin about . wth . why am i even crying . didnt i say i wont cry anymore .come on .you know you can be strong .only you can help yourself .nobody else can .jiayou .you can do it .
i dun wanna ride th freakin roller coaster anymore .ups and downs aint gonna do any good .

thought i knew you for a minute , but now im not so sure . so here's to everything coming down to nothing . here's to th silence that's cuts me to th core . where's all this goin ? thought i knew for a moment . but it just so happens i dont anymore ..
imissyou .ireallydunwannalooseanyofyou .ireallydomisseverything .