BOO ! (:

me misses many ppl .. and me miss camp too . this is th first time everyone misses camp . combined camp was a blast . super fun .
and in th plan for next year maybe gonna have another combined camp . and there will be combined activities too ! haha .
carrolling was fantabulous ! had so much fun . haha . super big thankyou to all of th carollers . th chinese song how we decide who to solo very interesting . play scissors paper stone and th winner do solo and why did i win . i also dont know . and so had t do solo for first verse . and my voice is not nice luhhs . why you all keep saying nice . and somemore ask me go be one of th vocalist for next year . debra's voice nicer . mine so so only luhhhh ..
JASON thankyou for all th wonderful music (: ♥
XIUFENG thankyou for doing th narration (: ♥
DEBRA , ZHENGLIN , ROGER , DAVID , CALEB , JONATHAN , ZHIQIANG thankyou all for taking part in carolling and making this possible (: ♥
without ur this would never be possible .
and a big thankyou t th guy who helped me come up with th script (: you rock (: ♥
and to th so called mastermind of th whole thing . thx luhh . say will help in th end where you go . i dont even see you or your shadow . msg also dont bother replying . today i sit there at th same table with you for so long talking t yunn you didn't even ask how it went or anything . you just continued eating and walked away . thanks for dumping everything on me . i so appreciate it . if this is th way you train ur leaders im sorry but you've failed big time . this aint th way to do it . who's th ones answering my questions . not you tt's for sure . instead its others and even ben who's not involved also ask how's everything coming along . if tt's th way you want things t be im fine with it . anyway leaders change every year . thankyou for giving me such a bad impression of you .

today's a happy happy sunday . its a happy day . lalala . finally talked t joshua wei more then just hi bye or smile . and its been months since i started putting makeup and you didn't notice . im suprised considering th fact tt we're in th same band . and i finally know th reason behind th red highlights in his hair . red is so wrong .. gold and ur hair was nice . but red not really nice . haha . why today is a happy day . idk also . just feel very happy today . haha .
christmas is coming ! presents are 3/4 finished . yaye ! haha .
looking forward t tuesday . gonna play play play and then go find some ppl . haha .
some random person invited me t watch singapore idol grand finals . but go for what . charles also not in th final two . go there waste time. if charles inside th final two i may conside going . haha .

and t tt whatever your name is . i dont care how many names you have or what ur called . stop whatever ur doing alrights .i've been nice t entertain you but ur going a little too far . i barely even know you and tt time i nth better t do so join in you and gordan's conversation alrights . first thing after i accept th facebook request thing you start asking me where i stay and for my number and stuffs . i not so shui bian give t ppl de kaay . you can ask th ppl in my sku who knows where i stay and you can get th number of ppl and can count using one or two hands and tt's it . so why would i even want t give you my address . you irritate me one more time and you'll get it from me . and who are you t me . why should i report my every single action t you . one last chance is all you have . you irritate me and you die .

BOO ! (:

back from camp ! haha . four fun filled days . i do miss all of ur . learnt quite alot of stuffs . never take alot of pictures though . th special night was really fun . th rest of th groups do skit we do game show . haha . saw a different side of some ppl during th camp . me talk alot already still got ppl say i never talk enough . i do miss my group . FABIAN ! super super cute . hope you do get into NH . then everyday confirm got ppl say you super cute . haha . ANDREW ! super lazzy brother . play handiplast hit until so hard . but anyway i think i hit tt dominic guy even harder . haha . slept at four on th last night . played till i think two plus then sang till four . haha . handiplast not fun lei . play for so short while only . and handiplast is addictive . haha .
ytd went t watch new moon . finally . when edward said marry me in my head i was thinking next scene was th wedding and i didn't expect it t be th credits . enjoyed th show though . replenished nail polish and bought a nice shade of blue . even though not th shade i wanted its still pretty . haha . cant wait for feb . ace will be seeing th world and can play with him . haha . ytd he was like playing boxing inside auntie's stomach . keep moving . haha . two more months t go !
and i finished all holiday hw ! yaye ! haha .
now t go do christmas presents .

BOO ! (:

note t self . never ever leave pencil case beside/below bed after finishing hw . stoopid bro push me off th bed and my foot landed on th pencil case and one toe th skin came off and it bled . stoopid ..
havent pack bag somemore . where got time t make christmas present . this is bad . next week's gonna be busy with so many things . carolling , clique outing blah blah blah . and i havent finish buying th materials t make yet .. this is really bad .
but on th bright side , ROGER's coming back today ! haha . never reply all my msges . D:
past few days . forgot all about class chalet . QIAN gonna kill me . i only rmb-ed aft it ended .
must must must study .
after camp i will and i must start studying .
and start and finish making christmas presents .
i should stop dreaming when sleeping .dreams are weird things . super th weird and sometimes they feel so real . and sometimes can just wake up in th middle of th night from th dream . yes i should stop dreaming . blank mind during sleep better . and maybe i should stop thinking bout stuff before i sleep too . ohwell .
LIME's in hongkong and my phone is super quiet . caz LIME usually msges alot and bout th most random stuff .

BOO ! (:

today's carolling was fun fun fun . almost th full strength here . short of three or four people . thankyou JASON for making everything sound so nice and beautiful ! and ZHIQIANG is joining us ! yaye ! haha . shall go phsyco more people in joining . haha . o come all ye faithful was simply wonderful . it was super super nice . away in a manger they were saying ask a small girl go sing solo first verse then all look at me . i small girl mehh .. i sing also not nice . haha . and last week already decide XIUFENG sing . i need ppl t sing tgt with me if not i will go super high and not nice . therefore i cant do solo . but idk why and how come kindergaten tt time th graduation concert i can . and it came out fine . i think . staring at my brother who was holding my teddybear th whole time . dunno where tt bearbear go already . must be my brother eat it up . haha .
SABBY leaving our cell D: sadded . one less leader t have fun with .
ROGER and YANGYANG only coming back on saturday night .
and i know MINHUI miss yang more . haha . ROGER TAN . you must know how t sing all th songs horrr . if not you come back from cambodia you die .
saturday must reach potong pasir by 8am D:
insanity . must wake up super early and potong pasir is like almost th last stop on th purple line . and nobody go with me somemore . th rest of my cell got daddy express or sharing cab with siblings . lets hope i meet somebody on th mrt . haha . packing list say no fbt shorts . then what i going t wear . i no shorts already . must go find shorts .
planning t study geog and maths and maybe bio ..
just cant find th mood t ..
rawr . shall go stone ...

BOO ! (:

its raining ..holidays are boring .. its aimless . dont even know what t do . only waiting for tmr t come . and th end of holidays .
you asked me if i would go t airport t see you off tmr . i said maybe and i know ur like kinda disappointed . i feel like going but its like nobody accompany me back after ur board th plane . and my mother confirm wont let also . take care while ur over there yeah . you'll be missed . carolling dates drawing nearer . and practises always not full attendance and th strength we have very small . if all come i'll be super happy . and reply my msg t let me know ur coming or not la . i know i younger then ur but at least reply . i need tt reply if not i cant schedule extra practises . well i guess tt's just th way you all are .
so looking forward t sku . i miss all of you . lots .
anybody want t go watch new moon ?

BOO ! (:

this is just random but its to all my beloveds clique and other beloveds .

nanako - heyy baby fishball ! :D . my crapping and super random partner . lol . its been three years . dont loose yourself anymore . later must buy butterfly net chase after you t catch you . haha . my ears are always open for you . available twentyfour seven . and it aint a crime t like ppl .and my fishball yes you can help me . my maths is dying ... its needs you . lol . ♥

Huizhen - heyy dear ! :D thank you so much for everything . yes i know i rant alot about clique stuff . th disagreements and all . thankyou for listening and for encouraging and for everything . also thankyou for that night during camp .iloveyou loads ♥

Xueting - hey mummy ! :D . i promise t stop gang-ing you .but maybe sometimes i still will . haha . we all gang you then ur face damm red . haha . hope ur sunburn getss better soon . thankyou for everything . late night smses and everything . and for trusting me with ur stuff . ♥

Denise - heyy grandmother lime ! ur like super random .th msges can be huh . okaay . so i know tt night . a little misunderstanding . xueting told me you were already pissed before tt . i guess i should have been more patient .. and for everything there will confirm be someone last t know . we all got tt feeling before . and no ur not left out or insignificant . ur still super important t us . ♥

OKAAY I LOVE ALL OF YOU . ALOT ♥

Wanying - heyy zhuu ! damm long since i last went out with you . you super skiinny luhhs . my one hand can hug all of you already . eat more . you and ur sunflower seeds . i shall buy you alot next year . wait you become another hamtaro . haha . i know this year things didn't go very smoothly but we shall make next year a better year . alrights ? ♥

Tianlan - heyy sky blue/mummy ! idk if you'll be reading this but here goes . thankyou for listening t all my shet and i know i sound horrible on th phone when im crying . anyway . enjoy urself in china . this year aint too good too . we shall make next year a better year . yes i know you not really my mummy . but anyway . idc . so yeah . haha . we shall high and hyper until th sky fall down . ♥

Shayue - yes , Shayue , you too . always kena bully by somebody during drama . haha . its been great everythings been cleared . go out more lahh . dont everyday hide at home . sunlight is good for you . lol . ♥

weixiang - yes you too . my brother . my best friend . thankyou for being such a great listening ear . i think you cant stand my crap anymore right . haha . thankyou for always being there for me . t comfort and encourage me . or just talking bout random stuff . thankyou for all those beautiful songs . i really appreciate everything . and i cant express my feelings in words . thankyou for all th 大道理 when im crying or in a super bad mood . thankyou so much . ♥

william - i know i've been super slack and most of th work done by you . thankyou for everything too . during tt period of time thankyou for telling me all th 大道理 and trying t help me along . thankyou . ♥


YES I LOVE ALL OF UR DAMM LOTS . AND REALLY APPRECIATE ALL OF UR FOR WHO YOU ARE . AND UR ARE TH PPL MOST IMPORTANT T ME AND CLOSEST T MY HEART AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU . ♥

*list not complete . shall continue another day .

BOO ! (:

back from obs . still got th feeling like i inside jungle .waking up t see my room and not nichol or cheryl or yu min . kinda weird . haha . first day forget what we did . second day we got mini expedition where we walked from one end of ubin t th other t get t the other camp site then do high elements . dinner tt day was th best . then at night super funny . caz next day if we want t go toilet must dig hole so after dinner we all go mass shet . third day was th land expedition . again carry th super super heavy bag go from one check point t another . monfort ppl doing all their echo-ing songs . and alden i got smile when you asked us to . you never see only . not just when dayah ask me to then i smile . haha .dinner was sort of like campfire style liddat . but no camp fire . all sit around th place we cook and eat . shared th maggie with nichol and nicholas . everything was normal until some effed up bitch come gl and scold like nobody buisness . stoopid bitch . anyway . a big thankyou t alden , nichol , nicholas , huizhen , sirchao and another person . dunno th name . fourth day got sea ex . one kayak three ppl . went with ppl from th other group . my own group nobody want me . sad right . lol . so kayaked with zachary and weijie . was fun . can have chance t cool down and enjoy th scenery and forget bout th stuff tt happened th night before . though i dunno them their super nice . especially zac . sorry tt i accidentally hit ur lip with th paddle . and no ur not irritating . doing th counting while we paddle really helps . thankyou for ur orange skin . haha . and weijie if th kayak really capsize , everytime i see you in sku i wack you . haha . super scary luhh . he can fall asleep practically anywhere . even in th kayak . first half zac sit in front later half weijie sat in front . at th back i scared already he sit in front even scarier . even though keep crashing into mangroves and twigs and everything. we still braved th storms and had a great time . haha . friday lunch was fun . all our hands were tied tgt .then we had t eat and drink liddat . super funny . drinking was quite tricky . hairul whole time di siao then cant drink . saying goodbye wasnt really tt hard . no one really bothered too anyway . haha . but still i'll miss th monfort ppl and yu min and hairul . th other two . nah . unless pigs can fly i wont .
so after five days . thirty over mosquito bites . and bruises and muscle pain . but anyway . was fun .
thankyou alden for sending out all th numbers and email i'll get from you another day .

maths was okaay .. rained super heavy so camped in sku till two plus . spent th time half talking and half reading with two ppl who i dont i usually mix with . and hey their harmless . nice ppl . haha .lunch was kinda like provided by them . haha .
nobody's home .. so lonely .. nobody online also .. sac all alone is her sad sad screwed up world ..
she stoopidly left her chem test paper in th sku toilet ytd and good thing th nice nice auntie never throw away .
she hates t be accused of things tt she didn't do and when ppl doubt her when what she's saying is th truth . it really seriously pisses her off alot . rawr . i feel like picking up th phone and calling someone and talk for who knows how long . there's too much going on .. but . i dunno who t call . i dunno who t talk to . some kind nice person just call me ? i really dunno who t call ..
idk how t express how i feel luhh . idk how t get rid of this feeling .. crying . nope . it doesnt work no more .
piano doesnt work either . most likely i'll just end up crying again .. i dont want t cry no more . i want t be happy . i want t be like last time . dunno anything at all . th innocent and carefree little kid . jojo dont go . i dont want you to . but i suppose tt's all up t you . you've been like a super great big sister t all of us and week after week we're all asking where you are and we do miss you . when are you coming back ? i miss you alrights . dont throw me alone . you promised t be there for me . thru th whole project . dont go alright .you need not be an enemy of god just t be friends with th world or find happiness in th world . man where's th jo i used t know . yes i know we cant stop you from choosing which path you want t take but if you deciede t leave this path there will be this empty spot there . we all need you in one way or another ... i really dunno what im talking about anymore .. please stay . pretty please . i've grown quite attached t you over time . please say you'll stay ...

BOO ! (:

nov's gonna be busy .. go back sku almost every other day plus all th other stuff ..
drama cip went t some old folks home and childcare . ofh super fail .. doubt th ppl understand what we talking at all . but suprisingly OFH more fun .
bored like shet . think i have th book where paul ling got th physice hw from but i cant find it .. and my printer print out cant even see a single thing .
lies is a super nice song . including heartbreaker and breathe and all th big bang songs . but im still addicted t lies .
shall let this place rot and grow cobwebs die or wdv ..
istilllovethrainandthfeelingofwalkinginthrainislikesupernice .
ishouldstopthinking.thinkingwillonlykillmybraincells.whyamilikesuddenlythinkingofallththingsinthpast ..

BOO ! (:

th sku year's coming t an end already .. looking back .. many things have happened .. good or bad i dun really care caz its over .. unless th thing hurt me veh badly or super nice i will rmb forever .
th teachers this year .. me loves mrs chng th most . th teacher tt has been constantly encouraging and never giving up on her students . well . J Lim .. okaay already . impression of her will change after some time .. begining of th year was like wth . now still okaay la . other teachers nth much .
and my beloved brothers/sisters/dears/darlings/everybody . life in sku has been great because of ur . yes . each and everyone of you . from drama t my current and ex classmates t those super regular CF ppl t those ppl around me . life's been great with ur around . thx for being there for me and making life more fun and memorable . me loves all of you .
i dun really wan th holidays t come . i rather whole year round gt sku . haha .
and i think im gonna miss mr foo too . he's a great principal even though we sometimes do make fun of his english he's a great principal . hope ctss de principal also like him ba .. i will rmb th magic trick tt mr foo taught . and i will make it work . and try till it works .haha .
lol . my mama call me a guy .reason : caz i suddenly hug her from th back . wth . who call her back facing me . so hug from th back lo . haha .
and sac's sorry for being a bitch ytd . yes she knows she's done wrong and she's sorry .so t th certain ppl tt she offended or made angry ytd , she's really sorry .

BOO ! (:

three and a half days gone , two and a half more t go .im seriously very very bored . facebook's a time killer but cant possibly stay in front of th com th whole day ..
sac is stoopid . really dumb . she already has two blisters tt bled when she walked she still went t wear a pair of nw shoes ytd . and now she has four or five blisters . oh yaye .
and she finds tt steve tyler looks like willy wonka . haha . and she found a new nice nice song by aerosmith . its i dont wanna miss a thing . really nice . haha .
she shall attemp t help her parents update their face book . its just a skeleton without anything inside and she was made t help them update but she doesnt have th mood to . hahaha .
but she shall go attempt to do so .
cloudy w a chance of meatballs was a total waste of money . cab fare t vivo plus movie ticket fare . seriously nt worth it . 3D tickets are like $12 and its not 3D at all luhh .. i rather watch scrooge in 3D . tt one if 4D even better .

BOO ! (:

eoy finally over .but dont have tt kind of happy mood . six days of not going to sku . i think stay at home somemore i will go crazy lo . three hours only . im so bored already . dun really look forward to getting back results . confirm will get scolded . anyway its like i study also liddat dun study also liddat . my mum wan st least 3 As . i get one i happy dy lo . considering th fact tt all my results this year abit ....
holiday supposedly two or three camps .. then now only left one confirm going another not sure yet .. th other one super cute . ten of th sec three careforce register for it then only three get selected . th ppl say what want have equal mix of all th race or ethnic groups .. so .. ronghua , wanxin and wenxuan go have fun and enjoy urselves there (:
i need to get out of th hse . staying in it summore will only make me go crazy .. due to ................
ohwell . had a damm weird dream . only a few ppl know . so keep it between us kaay . haha . shhh . dun go tell other ppl . th dream's so darn screwed and weird . can i forget it please .
anybody wan go watch ' My sister's keeper ' ? i want t watch ! i just started reading th book . haha .
lol . my bro de piano practical exam always short of two marks then distinction . haha .
anyway im quite proud of my marks even though i short of six marks . considering th fact tt i screwed up so darn badly . i shall practise like xiao and pass next yeear . this year examiner look like santa . hahaha .

totally screwed up piano exam like .......... of all th exams this was th first time i came out crying . damm shet luhh . if pass im gonna be super happy . rest of th week nth special happened . th best part was i patched with some ppl . they know who they are . haha .
so flagday was kinda retarded . not many ppl wan donate . sadded . then i saw alicia and eugene ! haha . and we made jerrald , cindy and kang jie donate . haha . i love alicia so much . so long didnt see her . and eugene i talk to you and you walk away . best you dont rmb who i am .break my heart . lol . basically just walked around aimlessly looking for nice ppl to donate . walked for three plus hours with th super heavy bag .. filled with maths stuff .. haha . th maths teacher damm nice .late for lesson never scold then stil veh nice and patient .yaye . lol .
aniway .
you kuku . its really great being able to start all over again . and i wont anyhow put my love letters in books then lend to ppl to read . i put inside definitely got reason de .haha . want read my love letter go find out where i keep first . lol . yeah . i guess it was pride tt was holding us back .pride got into th way of everything .saw th book tot of you .wanted to lend you bt pride got into th way again . ohwell . lets just say pride's th whole cause of all this . haha . let's put everything behind us and relive th old times . haha . th ice cream i fed you taste super nice right .hahaha . lol . th choc though is dark choc still dun taste so bad caz its filled with love . lol . i know it sounds damm wrong . but anyway . you kuku . i still love you . haha . now you know where tt idea for cinderella's catch phrase comes from . from me .hahaha .
and to th other someone .lets put everything behind us and let it go alright .lets be friends all over again . like how we did in th past .like so what if you hurt me . i hurt you too didn't i .so we're even ,ya ? haha . and yes ur nice kaay . bein my listening ear , being there to comfort and encourage me at times and for all th stuff in th msg . haha . yaye for you . it's really an honour to have you as a friend luhh . im not lying . serious .friends ? friends make my world go round .haha .

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oh so you think you know who ur true friends are . im impressed . so not .
whatever you wanna do with ur life . i dont give a shet anymore . talk to th wall for all i care .
complain to him for all i care . this is how i am . this is my attitude . dont like it . too bad . i don care .
do you even know what ur apologizing for i so dont think so . ur just doing it for th sake of doing it .
holidays equals no holiday at all . everyday stay at home do hw and study for eoy .
monday went out play . super fun until th time when th whole class was pissed then not fun .
tues some human call me go sku at seven in th morning . you dun wan sleep i wan sleep la . then talk a lot of shet and then supposed meet william and rong hua and all th rest go for some forum thing and phone keep ringing tt person still dun geddit and still crap on .. forum quite fun .train ride back even more fun . some other human when it got off dunno tell me be careful or dun die or what . like what's there in th mrt . haha .
tmr going somewhere . saturday going somewhere else .
gonna do chem now ..
time sure does fly .
ohwell ..

BOO ! (:

common test is finally over . chi was stoopid . no compre .. then i get i tink c .. if nt can get a ..
th only paper im kinda looking forward to getting back is chemistry ..
saw jason today (: finally after so long saw him in clem .. he's been working in clem super near to nh and i finally saw him today . haha . facebook is damm screwed now . th layout totally screwed cant see anything at all .
waiting for my mama to cook my lunch or should i say dinner considering th time now ..so today i'll slack th whole day away .
you know what . jesse i hate you . so what if you read it . you think i care . human rights . free country . i can say whatever i want . heard from lower sec if whole class agree then can change teacher . wonder if it applies to every level . i so do want tt to happen . i rather nic liu . at least he doesnt vent his anger on us . yeah so we're not as smart as 304 sp stop teaching so damm fast and gl us . caz we're stoopid . face it . i know you gave up on us long ago . dont tink we dunno . you wan play i can play with you till th end .everytime loose then start gl-ing even more .
i so hope th lowest i get for all th papers is a c .. i dun wan d or e or f . lets hope it all comes true ..
since facebook screwed shall not care bout it . shall do ting's quiz here then copy over when its better ..

1.This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
yeah
2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
tan
3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
not really . was freezing so how to be happy
4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
ehh .. after sku . Mr Ling
5.What is the last thing someone bought you?
green shirt
6.What’s something that can always make you feel better?
talking to some of my bestest dearest darlings
7. What are you excited for?
commontest is over
8. What were you doing yesterday?
studying
9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
forgot ..
10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
macarroni
11. Have a best friend?
you think . of caz and its more then one
12. Are you scared to fall in love?
no idea .
13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
i dont see why not
14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
th bamboo-ish bitch
15. What time is it right this second?
5:06pm
16. What do you want right now?
dl song but th com dun let me
17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
eh .. either xueting or denise
18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?

:x
19. When was the last time you cried?
friday .
20.Father or mother?
both?
21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
when you find th right ones you know you can trust them
22. How fast does your mind change?
depends.
23. I bet you miss somebody right now.
LOL.
24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
not really .
25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
ask them.
26. Tell me what's on your mind.
th song lyrics running thru my head
27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
holiday ?
28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
yeah.
29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
juz now.
30. When is your next road trip?
no idea ..
31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
yupp (:
32. How's your heart?
how would i know .
33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
you think .
34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
no idea . who knows .
35. What are you planning on doing after this?
finish my macaroni
36. When will your next kiss take place?
how would i know .
37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
nope.
38. Who do you not get along with?
not anyone in particular.
39. What does your 3rd recent text say?
Are you at home ?
40. What are you wearing right now?
sku blouse and shorts .
41.Are you wasting your time on the person you like?
nah .
42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
i forgot
43. What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
err. idk lol.
44. How did you feel when you woke up?
can i go back to bed ?
45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now
kinda . phone's been very quiet for very very long .
46. Do you crack your knuckles?
sometimes .
47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
studying
48. What are your LEGAL initials?
P,S,E,S ?
49. Who's the first B in your contacts?
Benedict Soh
50. When was the last time you laughed really hard?
cant rmb .
51. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
DUH.
52. Last awkward moment?
idk. forgot.
53. Are you afraid of the dark?
nt really .
54. Do you have good vision?
yeah
55. Have you ever tripped someone?
maybe
56. Have you ever slapped someone?
play play slap one
57. Are you Irish?
no
58. Do you use chop stick?
yeah.
59. Do you have any scars?
yup.
60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
maybe . see my mood and th person first
61.Do you laugh off embarrassing moments?
yeah.
62. Name the last person to text you?
roger
63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
depends.
64. Can you go in public looking like you do?
slu blouse and shorts ? i dont see why not
65. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
dunno
66. Is it easy for someone to make you smile?
Yup.
67. What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
check that i din forget anything. haha.
68. Do you fall for people easily?
nt really .
69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
yeah
70. Do you miss the way things used to be?
yeah.
71. How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
Sometimes.
72. Song you're thinking of right now?
paparrazi
73. Want someone back in your life?
dunno.
74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
i hope so.
75. What’s the color of you’re shirt you are wearing?
white
76. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
yes.
77. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
yes. i hate it.
78. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
yupp
79. Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
depends.
80. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
yeah

th end (: hope macarroni cooled down already ..

BOO ! (:

few more hours to go (:
and haven't study for maths test which is tmr ..
so gonna fail it . chapter 10 i can do till cry .
wanna thank YO ! for celebrating it for me today .
really a suprise . all of them went to Mac first then jon brought me there . all dissapeared except felicia and gilda . so waited for quite long . attempted to study maths there . but aft take book saw some came back then decided not to caz tot th rest coming back soon . th feeling when i saw them is like suprised . was sitting facing th wall then they came in and started singing birthday song and they made a cake too . all of them even th guys put in effort to make . so touched . haha . thank all of you so so much . i love all of you .
saturday went kel hse with jerome and yati supposedly to study . then did maths and then half th chap on respiration then slacked till five plus then go home .went orchard aft tt .. th ion orchard super th crowded . so went taka eat then go back to walk walk . th shoes cheap . nice and affordable two pair twenty five . but when went back tt time close already . th dunking donut cheat my feeling ..singapore not much flavour de .. i prefer thailand .. got more variety and flavours .
yati .. why go post so much of my candid shot and th unglam shots .. got some i really look so kuku .. you wait . i havent post urs only . haha .
lol. i miss batam th scrambled eggs . would any kind soul cook for me ? haha . batam scrambled eggs really super super super nice .

BOO ! (:

finally finish doing proposal for th game thingy .still must draw picture of it . zzz ..
screwed up th closing song real bad .
th sending of song super cute .
dunno why closing song tt time zach come sit beside me and start talking .
then aft tt sending off he asked if i know how play and obviously i know la . then he wan play so let him play lo . then aft tt th backup singers and both th pianists start laughing and laugh th whole song thru .
though didn't win im still proud of my cell . great job (: WILL just has too many supporters . if nt we confirm win . haha .
one more week . seven more days . dunno what im looking forward to either . dun even have any plan for tt day . not like th others all gt plan .. shall see ..
so looking forward for drama . hahaha . i shall nt be late . and i shall not need to do extra pump . i shall stay outside th room thruout th break . i dun care .hahaha .

BOO ! (:

super super high . worship practice was a blast and its like damm fun . chong weiyang ! why you so talented .. im jealous .. can play drum , guitar , piano and sing and its all so damm nice especially piano . really had a great time . away from my phone and all other distractions . just immerse in music and all th troubles just go away liddat . wahhaha . im like super super happy after that . zach's face was like super red . when th WL ask he was like im hot . haha . then minhui was like he shy la . caz th piano/keyboard bench was like smaller then ur normal piano bench and i was sharing th bench with him and i was like kinda falling off . haha . thankyou for helping me with th song i didn't know . (: car ride home was also super super fun . weiyang , his papa and minhui conversation is like super interesting . and amazingly yang doesnt rmb where he stays last time . when reach home he was asking th sister where this place was and why so familiar . you kuku . if you never shift then you'll be like 5-10 mins away from my block only then can go disturb you and make you teach me geog . haha .
yaye ! i love all of you . each and everyone of ur . makes up a part of my lifeand makes it special , unique and memorable (:

sorry sister . dunno why i just got super pissed and then i was liddat durin th train journey home . you also quite smart uhh . know not to talk to me . if you did i'll either scream at you or start crying . haha . you better come earlier and not make me walk alone . especially next next monday . if not i will kill you . haha .

BOO ! (:

had listening compre . sunday's th quiz . have one whole chapter to revise thru . im dead . haha . its either my com or blogger tt's screwed .. only can choose font and type cant do anything else ..
lots of stuff happened thru th week . ytd was bad . especially you know what lesson . and aft tt th maths lesson too .. made us play with sheep's heart before lunch . and kel go cut th heart up till like minced meat ..
had a nice long long sleep . and i mean long . real long . one i never had in a long long time . went out with my dearest tai tai and yati and qinsi for lunch .. saw some ppl there and i got dao-ed .. changed wallpaper .. now its with nichol . before that was tai tai . and i want pictures with me sister and girlfriend and laogong and darling and i dunno . haha .so if ur like anyone of th above dun reject when i ask you take pic alright . haha .

BOO ! (:

think i screwed up th oral conversation real bad .. me and hongyu same de . like answering compre liddat .. you ask what i answer what .. die .. so lots of stuff has been going on .. i dun wanna care anymore .. just to tell you this . you piss me off summore you call or msg me or msn i wont care about you all th same . and so what if you have ppl backing you . i dun give a damm . want me reply you in ur dreams . its all cause of you that we're in this state today . everyone feels th same way .
half th class absent . sadded .. seeing th super empty classroom so sian .. get well soon . haowen good . until lunch that time then say you still not feeling well ask me go further away from you . who knows how much germs have been passed already .. aniway thankyou for helping me buy milk today (: i know i describe it until quite bad . just say th yellow and white carton with pictures of cows on it and you still bought th right one . yaye (: haha . dont have you in class abit weird lo . usually you'll be sitting behind me and keep asking me to see ur magic tricks and ask for comments and stuff . yeah . that usually helps cheer me up too .
facing an empty classroom ..from full strenght to twenty plus left . take class photo that day will there be full strenght or even lesser people .. i wonder ..
oh well .. haven't found th time to update cf blog and its like half of july already ..
shall find time to do so ..
now to go study ..

BOO ! (:

oral's tmr . best is other class study like siao and my class like bo chup de . haha .
im gonna need all th luck i can get to score .
confirm die at conversation part .
bio spa no more ms loy .
chem spa got one more ms chien/chein ? dunno la .
see her i think of my cousin and mei luan . haha .
jesse gl .. heard her say sth like dun get jovina into trouble . why would i even want to . wads ur problem la . is she drop th bleach then kena my hand can . say me .. stoopid .. gt problem with me izzit . everytime also liddat . say wad wan change place in th lab then first one call me summore make me sit rite in front . ppl mood at first nt good then good dy you come spoil it again .
even better . in th middle of th nite . ppl happy happy in dreamland . some policeman shout lyk nobody buisness downstairs . its lyk middle of th night . you caught ur guy . dunnid scream lyk fag rite . never think of th ping fan ren like all of us that's sleeping . best is catch th guy dy go kick . n th guy skinny n police nt so skinny . th most ridiculous question i hear was why you run or why you make me chase you ? its like which criminal will guai guai let you handcuff and bring back to station de . obviously will run la . stoopid . th screamer i tink woke like alot of ppl lo . suprisingly my bro can sleep thru all that . i was standin at th window super tempted to shout shuddup . haha . tt wonderful screamer spoiled th image i have of th police force .
so violent and rough and like to scream like fag . so long th good image i had for all of ur .


I can almost see it. That dream I'm dreaming but.There's a voice inside my head sayin,You'll never reach it,Every step I'm taking,Every move I make feels Lost with no direction.My faith is shaking but I Got to keep trying Got to keep my head held high .
There's always going to be another mountain.I'm always going to want to make it move.Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes you going to have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side .It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing,The chances I'm taking Sometimes they knock me down but No I'm not breaking
I may not know it But these are the moments that I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going And I, I got to be strong Just keep pushing on, cause
There's always going to be another mountain .I'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose .Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
There's always going to be another mountain .I'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose .Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
Keep on moving . Keep climbing .Keep the faith baby
It's all about It's all about The climb
Keep the faith . Keep your faith
im gonna prove that voice wrong and show it i can and i can reach it .even though each step may feel lost with no directions and at times my faith will be shaking but i wont give eup and cling on to th hope i have to spur me on . th struggles i may face and th chances i may take . they may trip and knock me down but no i wont break . i'll stil carry on .these are th things that'll make me stronger .and looking back at these memories i'll see how much i've grown . there'll be no looking back and just keep going and pushing on and be strong .no matter what th obstacles may be and no matter what battles there are .no matter how many times i trip or fall or how much time i take to get there . i wont give up . i'll reach for that dream that im dreaming of . and show that voice and those who dont believe that i can and i will .

you dumb . congrats on snappin out of it and realising that th world's a whole lot better and full of colours . and rain does not wash colours away . th world will always be a wonderful place with many colours for you . aft all those late nite talks and loads of stuff , its great you finally realised . that it's so not worth anything . forget about it and live ur life th way it will be jealous to see . and finally realise th injustice tt it done to you .

BOO ! (:

first day of sku kinda sian . except for th fact tt whole day change place n can talk to ppl so tt's th only good part . me brunchner eat halfway n leave on th table . later ants go eat .. its gettin colder n colder .. haha ..
me likey hoobastank . even th breakup songs are nt lyk ur typical breakup songs if you know wad i mean . kinda can relate to th lyrics of all th songs i got today . haha . hoobastank is nice . first song i heard was th reason . th song for pulse anniversary . pulse is now 6 ! haha .
interstin conversation of th day .


durin chi lesson . some nth better to do ppl started talkin .
A : eh where you goin aft sku ?
B : erm .. ( thinking what to say )
A : with xxx ahh ?
B : yea .
C : what's xxx ?
D : a person la .
-short break in between-
A : eh ur eyes veh nice lei . nicer than yyy de .
E : OI !
A : serious . th eyes really nicer than ur yyy . i not kidding .
B : ouh . okaay . thankyou .
-all turn away n go back to do own stuff-

haha .
happy guessing who they are (:
ilovemyclass (:

musicmusicmusicmusicmusic . lalalalala .

BOO ! (:

sku's gonna start . nt really lookin forward to it though .th new timetable is crap . tmr needa go help out with th pri sku kids . me planning all th games . juz typical drama n careforce games to keep them entertained . me wans drama cip to come faster . than can go play with all th little kiddies . haha . woke up dunno how many times this morning .. finally gave up going back to sleep and then nua on th bed till 11+ .. you gotta love ur bed . its super nice and warm and comfortable . you can cry on it and it wont give you away . can talk on th bed . do hw on th bed and loads more . haha .
waiting for th choc tha ti juz made for jon's present to solidify . and im hopin tt th ants didnt go invade it . me now hates ants . caz they invaded my room and my hse and my bathroom . dumb ants .
finished all hw except chinese . nt gonna do it anyway . somebody lend me chem please . me has many blanks . later jesse gl again . she like to zhen dui me alot .
looking for more songs .. any reccomendations ?
thank some ppl for stoppin th thing on th class blog for me . appreciate it alot .
and thank my teddybear for bein there for me .
and then also you . for th 300 smiley face (: first person to make me smile aft i cry . nt bad uhh . haha . thanks for contributing to th smiley bank . they will be put to good use . hahaha .
now awaiting th call of my dearest lee ziqing .

BOO ! (:

camp's over . lets say it was okaay . nt really fantastic . grp 12 - 14 is all th japalang grp n suay suay in grp 13 .. bt gt th strawberry to pei me . sadded luhh . separated frm th class .. gt super pissed with some people . and apparently tt people din get it even though it was super obvious . haha . wo jiu shi zhe yang de . i dun like you can see veh clearly on my face de . unless i ren . din get to do flying fox .. and tt was th thing i was super lookin forward to .. sad luhh . summore this one is different from th ones tt i tried before . this is higher and longer . more fun . haiish .. aniway th thing most fun i tink would be when joshua lead th grp thru all th games durin th wet weather . caterpilla walk was crap .on my lap is basically doin sth lyk wad we do in drama . not exactly fun . tp shuffle . nice . bt keep falling and veh th .... my shirt gt pulled by some guy in th grp and i dun even know who ..
th only high element i did was th broken bridge thingy , do dy fingers cant bend . aft th camp here bruise there bruise . here pain there pain . blah ..
left 4 days of holiday .. finally found my mama favourite song for her . im happy . haha .

ohyes .. to tt random person . abit cute ahh .. bt nt funny ahh ..



cell outing ! (: (:

less than half of my beloved cell (: arnold trying to be funny ..


minhui (: debra (: huiling (:

BOO ! (:

left chinese .. how ur do de .. th passage is like freakin cheem .. if its compre maybe i still can do bt chang wen shuo duan i cant do ..
aft goin to kids camp every year , tis year break th record . not goin anymore . and tis year camp gonna fail . caz th leaders they get are ............. n those ppl who go juz to get th badge i rather ur dun go luhh .. based on past experience is ur let th kids control ur and nt ur control th kids .. liddat how lead them .. caleb also asked why so many assistant leader per grp .. its caz of those ppl who want badges .. only goin tmr caz th commander asked me to . if nt i rather stay at home ..
father day coming .. no idea give wad or do wad ..
ytd went out with cell .. went causeway eat sakae with WILL .. tt was only th best part of th day . th rest of th day was freakin screwed and bad ..
me wants yami yoghurt .. shall make me mama get it for me since i got her th discount coupon . haha . its really nice .so far of all th flavours i ate , peach and th green apple is nice . nearest outlet located at jurong point basement . somewhere opposite th disc shop at th old wing .
current accessories to get : headbands and bracelts . anyone know where got sell nice nice de ? headband is nt th chamelon sell tt kind or th plastic plastic de . is th nice nice kind .. if you know anywhere have tell me . tankyew .

iwanttoshuijiao .. headhurtingsobad .. stillmusttakecareofbrothertillthparentscomehome .. blah ....

BOO ! (:

left one week of holidays .. stoopid camp took up th last week . lucky nt involve in kidscamp if not i die .. so i left . half of e maths , chinese , half of chem and compo . yeah . i tink tt's it . one week to complete all ..
feelin super lazy and dun really wanna post th june babies birthday on th careforce blog and its lyk rotting other than th random quotes william programmed to auto post on mondays ..
went out ytd nite reached home bout 1130 .. neh get scolded amazingly . been a super long time since last went out with quanjie . last time was lyk last year dunno when at th zoo . and th whole grp of us talkin and he was like . yah . she my neighbour in th zoo . i stay at th water there she stay with th giraffe then we take pic tgt dy .. you dumb .. th more pic th merrier ma . more memories . haha . ytd nite was lyk super fun . and worth it . haha .
ohwell . no choice bt to go post th june babies stuff before th hj complain summore .. i lost th list summore .. haii ..
enjoy th rest of ur holidays (:

cello is lyk damm cool ..
haha .
so is violin .

BOO ! (:

bout half th holidays gone and i completed half of th hw . half more to go .
Demi Lovato is nice . haha .
back frm batam too . there th stuff cheap bt nth to buy . sadded luhh .. th polo shirt is lyk super cheap then th material only got lycra de .. me no like .. n th addidas n nike shoe also veh cheap bt me no like th design . was kinda tired thruout th whole trip . third day best . play captain ball in th swimming pool . at first is all th kiddies play then pulse came in to play and it was th best time of th whole trip . then aft tt all wet wet de go for dinner .. n josel look at me and was lyk feng man de nu ren . haha . okaay .. so my top is low de .. bt tt's th only swim de top i have .. aft tt i tink was th dun forget th lyrics and skits part . skipped th whole thing and nua in th room with my bro .. n smartly injured my foot too . so my bro was kinda lyk my servant . muahhaha .. boat ride back home was super not fun .. tink th aircon broke down .. everyone sweat until .... slept thru th whole ride .. yangyang (CHONG ) was sittin beside me ..any lower he would be sleepin on my shoulder .. haha .. dun really care aniway .. so many ppl lean on me here n there before .. haha .. so th stuff i gained frm th trip is a new friend in shawn LEE . and i bought super cute gingerbreadboy earrings . and an injured foot . haha .
me wans to learn guitar . anyone wan teach ? haha . guitar seems fun .
piano gettin worse ..exam in two months .. im super dead ..
ya la . my hand nt big la . cannot stretch la .. keep callin me play same part over n over .. i'll get super irritated la . like you said . my standard now can pass . pass i happy dy . caz accordin to yangyang and wen they all failed and yangyang playin is lyk woah .. veh nice de la ..


some of th pics .. waitin for th rest ..


pulse girls who went for th retreat . i look stoopid in all th pictures ..
ben gettin squashed by some of th guys .. and th guys all dun wan take picture .. th pretty with long hair in green tee n shorts is none other than me roomate , JULIANA ! haha ..

finally finished th camp booklet .
very very big thankyou to someone who helped me get all th stuff out frm th file i couldn't open .
and its raining ...
times changed . i tink rain doesnt really cheer me up unless i walk in it dy . haha . ohwell . now to go play . haha .

August
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends .

Mostly i dunno .. haha ..
we shall see in time to come if its all really true ..

how hard th wishing time also wont slow down . th hols are here . n i so do not want them . n th sec fours handed over th duty to us dy . ALVIN TAN'S th new president . was lyk super happy when i knew . caz i guessed it would be him out of th five in th commitee . and NICHOL LEONG and MAX are th vice pres . grace th secretary and me as th treasurer . was like super unexpected lo . caz i tot i wont have any position in drama . haha . oh well . drama's gonna be different without all of them there .
ptc was lyk shet . spent th whole day with lan . when you put two emo ppl tgt it doesnt make any difference . me like playin with ppl phone de keychain then dunno wad i did and then lan started laughing lyk xiao n yaye .everybody's happy . haha .
n tears can be th solvent for paper chromatography . wan proof i have .
now im gonna die . needa come up with camp booklet . by tmr morning . which i plan to finish before 12 tonite . 1h6min left . impossible . i know nuts about th theme . no inspiration comes to mind . oh well . i shall try . and those who dont have th packing list please go to CAREFORCE blog and get . thankyou . apparently we forgot to give some people ..
i will cut my hair before tuesday . and i dun care . i wan pon paul ling remedial . if cant pon then i shall bring my maths hw there to do . i dun care . jesse today attitude is lyk total change .say wad i lost in my own world all th time and dun talk to ppl . is you never see only can . say wad never do ur hw and leave blank durin midyear .i never leave blank n i got do ur freakin hw .and say half a year dy never hear my voice before and paul ling agree with her . wth . paul ling memory muz be .............. caz i did talk to him many times . if i wan you can two whole years dun hear my voice at all . n i shall be tt voiceless student in your class . n you did hear okaay .. ask me answer so many questions still say never hear . ur memory also another got problem one .
blah .......... stoopid ......
wad th hell is you make a difference . no inspiration la ....
carebears super cute ! me likes th one with th rainbow , th cupcake , th star and th heart . hahaha ..

BOO ! (:

ihatechem . oops . did i juz say tt . ohwell . jesse doesnt come here aniway so i dont care . if she does then we shall see about tt . you know ur lesson we all feel super stress . still everytime shout at us n shout n shout n shout . tink you wad sia . stress us more only . today spa . thanks alot la . i also not one of th few you ask to stay back . is i helpin ppl wash th apparatus caz they chiong-ing th worksheet then call me n those you ask to stay back clean up th lab . bloodyhell . then sku employ lab tech for wad sia . summore th pipette thingy mine is dirty de can . then we four ppl sharin two still keep makin us redo .
holidays are coming . me so does not want them to come . one whole month cant see all my beloveds . blahhh ... im gonna miss them lyk shet . lets see . holidays im gonna pon paul ling and surin remedial . muahaha . im goin somewhere over th rainbow . haha . and also th 2nd day of careforce camp .sadded .
addicted to all th old old songs . those songs that juz dont grow old .. n wont listen till sick of them de . haha .
now to contine with wad i was suppsoed to do in th first place ..

finally got back chinese paper . quite happy with th results for papertwo but not one . tink if pls ca marks maybe can get a2 if not b3 . ihateenglishoralcom . so dumb .holidays are coming .dunwan them to come .school more fun .now going crazy over plannin stuff for careforce . dumb h1n1 then sku reject th overnight camp idea . yuan lai plan camp shi na me xin ku . fri went ard findin th various ppl in charge of various departments for th camp . n my foot was hurtin th whole time . n why . i landed on th wrong foot . landed on right instead of left . and if you know me since sec one or remembered , i injured right foot durin sec one durin EOY . so smart rite . haha . still rmb th maths cher was starin at my foot thruout th paper she was invigilating . n apparently she inured her foot too . haha .
n oral . i got lower then somebody . n aapparently th somebody also passed more subjects then me . i really gotta start studying more over th holidays . stuff learnt from Alvin . thru tis midyear , last min pia-ing wont help . haha .
tmr gonna finalise all th camp stuff . hope this camp will be a sucess . quite a lot of ppl involved in th various comms gt cip on dunno which day . super shet la .then muz find more ppl . like th games and rod n logistics . all th ppl we get all got cip at dunno wad shet place . only jianbin can . wadeva . i dun care . th most exco do till die only . lalala . william where th hell are you . im waiting for th draft then can faster send over to madame . n can faster settle before thursday ..
yes . tianlan . me like . gonna try follow her have th goal of not cryin for th nxt half year . n apparently i dun tink i'll suceed . first half of th year . lemme see . cry dunno how many time dy . so dumb .
and now . back to english . maybe i shld juz let this place rot n die . no one comes anyway ..
me wants to cut hair .maybe wanying's dream will come true and one day she'll become a hair stylist and then i'll go look for her to cut my hair . haha . and im gonna cut once sku ends . quite bu she . but oh well . it'll grow again . its lyk frm th end of my back to shoulder . sadded . i wan nine pm to come faster . hahaha .

freakin tired . izzit juz cold or im havin a fever again . blah . i dun care aniway .what's going on . i dunno .im tired . im mixed up . i dun wanna think anymore .got back all th papers except chinese . wtheck is th stoopid teacher doin . i wan my paper luhh . oral also last min tell us . now dun even let us have a chance to check th paper . i failed 3 . and maybe chinese too . maybe th tiredness and sadness is written all over .i dun understand why she doesnt scold me like she usually does but instead treats me so nicely .i dunno why . i wan her to scold me instead .for not doing well and i dunno .omg . where has th old me gone to ? th new me is scaring myself . th tolerance level of pain n sadness n stress is lyk super th high . its slowly building up higher and higher and i have no idea who to turn to anymore . its lyk now im trapped in a place .where there's no one else .no one to turn to . not even my parents or cell leaders . not even roger . or huiwen . needless to say . you . how am i supposed to get rid of all this pain . i dunno . i wont turn to hurting myself .i wont cry anymore .i dunno .why am i running .running away frm all this .retreating further and further into th darkness instead of searching for tt light of hope .why cant i be like wad i wrote in th compo .only fonseka will know what im talkin about . wth . why am i even crying . didnt i say i wont cry anymore .come on .you know you can be strong .only you can help yourself .nobody else can .jiayou .you can do it .
i dun wanna ride th freakin roller coaster anymore .ups and downs aint gonna do any good .

thought i knew you for a minute , but now im not so sure . so here's to everything coming down to nothing . here's to th silence that's cuts me to th core . where's all this goin ? thought i knew for a moment . but it just so happens i dont anymore ..
imissyou .ireallydunwannalooseanyofyou .ireallydomisseverything .

BOO ! (:

bloodyhell . i dunwan fall sick .. th fever's kinda back . it went on a holiday ytd and now its returning . now head hurtin lyk abcdefghijklmnop ... sum dumb organ also hurting .. blah .. muz get well by tmr morning 7am . i cant abandon zac .. its been super long since i last worked with him . thankyou so much for everything ytd . its been really long since i last played and im kinda rusty . bt thanks for helpin me alot alot . haha . made a new fren ytd . nt tt anyone will care .soMe ns guy .. we're loosing all our ppl to ns .. n then th music ministry will decrease .. n become smaller .. blah ... wadeva . i dun care .. juz gt yangyang n liankhup can le . oh wait . yang's gonna have to go ns too . oh well .

went out with tai tai to celebrate her birthday .tai tai super cute .we did sth which tai tai is stil figuring out n its our secret then when we ask for th cake th whole staff came out n sang birthday song for her and she was lyk omg . how they know its my birthday how they know i coming here . super cute luhh . went watch angels n demons . not bad . aft movie i gong already . cant walk properly . haha . went replenish nail polish then went walk walk then went home . yaye . im all alone at home .. anyone wanna come ? haha . i'll be at home alone most of th time on saturdays ..

ytd went out with drama . well nt all . michelle . jocelyn . alvin . winnie . max . nichol . was th first time i went ikea so fun . im stil waiting for th photo's from winnie ..

me wants more accesories . like bracelet and earrings . n i wan a ring . bloody bus ran over my ring .. th only one tt can fit on all my fingers .. found two today bt its lyk eighteen dollars .. and im pathetically broke .. ohwell . i shall wait till i find a nice n affordable one .

im dead . jon gonna kill me . jo n jason gonna kill me too . oh well ...

為什麼這個世界要有這麼多煩惱和問題 ...
我真的累了 .. 我再也不要去想任何事了 ..
好想有一個沒有煩惱的世界 ..
過這沒有煩惱沒有任何問題的生活 ..

juz realised i havent done chinese hw . not planning to do it aniway . rest of th week dunnid go sku n i m dying at home . ppl is all durin exam fall sick i is aft exam fall sick . tmr roger's coming bt i wont be at home . sadded . roger is lyk th best elder brother anyone could have . envy his sister for having such a great brother .. i miss people . lyk wanying . my zhu and lespartner . tianlan . my dearest and da jie jie . haha . th other four im always with in class . and drama . i miss drama th most . all th crazy moments and th tears and hugs and everything .next week sec3 gonna take over le .me confirm wont get any role .im hopin alvn for chair and nichol and winnie for th 2 vicechair .
ahh wadeva .. me no care .

i juz hope this is all a nightmare and when i wake up it'll be all gone . but its freakin impossible . caz apparently im not in a dream . i so need a miracle to change it from a nightmare to a beautiful dream . oh well . tt's how reality is . it crushes you and tears you into pieces and break you down till you cant take it anymore then go into depression and then start doing stoopid stuff . which apparently i wont do caz i love myself . i'll juz find a way through th nightmare . even if im all alone i wont give up .

and its juz a fever . and it aint tt high .its juz above th normal 37.5 range ..i dun have th stoopid piggy flu so stop saying i do ..

ignore me or not its ur choice .th decision is urs to make .juz live ur life happily and contentedly .i know im a nothing to you now .even if i stil wanna be friends you may not want it and want me out of ur life .i'll juz continue finding my way out of this .

BOO ! (:

midyears are finally over .should have tt happy feeling but where on earth has it gone to . i feel lyk screaming till i loose my voice and cry till i cant cry anymore . bloodyhell . wads wrong with me . i tink i'll need many more exams lyk everyday to keep me distracted and focused on studies instead of getting distracted by life's stoopid distractions . i rather th stress then gettin distracted .
bloodyhell .you tink you who sia . sae wad shet when you dun even know head or tail of th freakin situation .dunno anything then juz shuddup la .bloodybitch . omg . why on earth am i even thinking of you . i muz be going crazy . yeah . that muz be th case . lemme tell you this . i dun give a shet bout ur wadeva xiao jie pi qi kaay . you created tis shet get urself out of it luhh . i pity him sehh . muz clear th shet you created . wake up la . he aint ur servant and why on earth would i do sth tt wont benefit me . please la . use ur brain can .even 3 year old kid will know la . come on la . we juz stating out th facts n th truth . hate me ? come la . i scared you uhh . bloodyhell .
shall not rant on anymore .. spoil my mood only . yujun ! where you ? i going crazy already luhh . when you gonna reach home n online ? alvin also not online .. jianyi not online too .. nobody talk to .. sian .. lazy msg ppl also .. still muz wait for reply .. yujun muz tink im super vulgar .okaay .im nt th extreme kind bt caz of wads goin on im becoming more vulgar .i dun give a damm anyway .stoopid fone playing with my mind .showing me stuff i dun wan see and tricking me into believeing it and i also deleted stuff caz of it . wth . . midyears . eng tink can pass . chinese .i dunno .eye pain do quite slow n chionged th two compre . emaths . can pass . a maths . die .i stare at th paper it stare back at me . geog . maybe can pass . ss . dun really have a good feeling bout it . chem . more then 20marks i happy already . physics . can pass . bio . do until very happy lo . haha .
sae wad i remembering machine .before exam can rmb during exam i'll be lyk shet . i got study bt why cant i rmb . yeah .tt's her for you . haha . feels weird coming home so early .past few weeks bout seven plus or even later then reach home .. amazingly never get scolded at all .shall go stone while waiting for th da xiao jie come online .

this aint a fairytale and im not a princess . this is a nightmare and im struggling in th deep darkness to find tt glimmer of light and hope to pull myself out of this nightmare .and to a place where i'll be th princess of my very own fairytale and a place where dreams do come true .沒有白馬王子也沒有關係 . 只要每天開開心心 , 快快樂樂 過這屬於我自己的童話故事就夠了 .因為我知道總有一個部會拋棄我的人.永遠會培在我生邊不會離開我.


well .dunno if you'll read this or even come here at all .but if you do .i want you to know .i dont blame you for anything or hate you .so pretty please throw away all th guilt or wad shet .im hoping for a friendship like before .if ya dun wan it anymore juz tell me .like i said many times before .if ya ever need anyone when ur feeling down or alone rmb that you still have a super crazy and retarded friend here for you .and th crazy friend is contactable 24/7 , 365 days/year . haha . yeah . and if ya still feel guilty or wad YOU'RE FORGIVEN and you always will be . alright ? haha .

managed to finish modulus quiz and get 70% rite even though head was going bing bong biang . aniway . thankyou iris for th encouragement . ily ! haha . i screwed up both papers .. both is first one can write . th next one die already . found out tt going library can study more . less distractions and i can tune out th sounds . why cant i do tt at home .. so dumb ..
im gonna die tmr .. n if anything happen to me remember DO NOT call my mum or tell her anything .
im so smart . can study till got bruise .. wth ..

雖然在茫茫人海中 ,寂寞的感覺還一直在 ...
這樣下去 ..
我不瘋才怪 ...

wth is wrong with me ..

well .i guess . i dunno .im nt gonna tink anymore .i'll juz live everyday as it comes and as it is .
a super super big thankyou to th many ppl who helped me super lots .

LEE ZIQING . thankyou so much .talked till quite late n you were studying but still you were there for me .xiexieni .
ALVIN TAN SHU FENG . thankyou for ur big big super sunshine smiles whenever i see you around in sku and juz letting me shout ur name loudly for fun .
NICHOL LEONG JIA EN . thankyou for everything . ily loads .
LEE YUJUN . heyy dear . thankyou for everything . i know you wasted alot of smses on me . haha . thankyou loads . ily .
TAN HUIZHEN . for all th valuable stuffs tt made sense to me even though i was breakin down real bad .
DENISE . i know th mass crying/emo-ing pissed you off . but stil . thankyou for counsilling all of us .
XUETING . thankyew for everything .
SHAYUE . ah you . alot of thing to say . but i think you know wad i wanna say . haha .
STRAWBERRY :D . yah . you too . shld know wad i wanna say .
LEON LIM . th most unexpected one .haha .tuesday was breakin down real bad n yunmin also cryin so scrolled thru whole contact list n den called you . i dunno why too .haha . thankyou for listening to everything . i know its lyk nt very clear caz i was crying quite badly . haha . bud aniway . thankyou . and you still owe me my book !
YUNMIN . thankyou for everything . calling me n comforting me n stuffs . and for making me laugh with chunmei and chunyun in th background talkin . haha .
JENSI .thankyou for th hugg and th lil talk on tuesday . (:
DONG TIANLAN . heh . i know i influenced you and made you cry too . anyway . cheer up yea . dun sad anymore . no one blames you . SMILE alright .

yea .. i tink tt's about all . sorry if i missed out ur name .. haha .. super big thankyou to all of ur . i love ur loads .
tot thru wad ur said and yeah . it does make sense . nichol told me a story on sports day .about a princess . and whenever she cries , her tears will turn into jewels and other precious stuffs .and therefore . tears are precious things . n cannot cry for th littlest things . and other cheem chinese stuffs in th beautiful love letter . haha . yeah . all of ur told me stuffs real valuable to me . n so . sac will nt cry so easily anymore . but instead try to build herself up on her own n shed th mask she's hidding behind bit by bit . and soon there wont be anymore mask .

juz realised sth today .whenever me or lan nt in a good mood or cry or wad n we're tgt will go jurong point and walk around and do random stuff and talk random things till we're all feeling better . haha .and today shayue was dragged in too . haha . in th mrt me arm started bleeding n nt really in th mood to care so juz let it bleed .juz pulled th sleeve a lil higher so wont kena stain n let it continue bleedin . hahaha .yue saw n looked away . lan saw and took out plaster . sac saw n dun give a damm . haha .

even if there's no legacy or anything , EDC is still th best and i love all of you loads . i dun wan this year to end . nt now . and never . im gonna miss all of ur so much . th sec 2-4 are super bonded .some of th sec ones included too . im gonna miss all of ur so much . frm zijing all th way to vanessa .we started cryin bout it since last year cultural pot .tis year's cultural pot gonna be different without all of ur in it . th characters wont be th same anymore . well . time wont stop .

ah well ..
time to go study ..
thankyouforallthewonderfulmemories .they'llbetreasured .ireallyhopethefriendshipwillcontinueon .andnotstopbecauseofwhathappened .
if i had one last minute to live . i would use tt very last breathe i have to tell you iloveyou .
believe it or not . it'll be th same for each n everyone of you .

sac's no more th sac you all used to know .
so get this into ur heads .
sac's nt a person who you can juz play with .
she needs constant love , care and concern too .
nt constant tearing apart n breakin down of .
tearing apart and breaking down will only ruin her more .
she needs building up . not tearing down .
she's already really badly ruined .
so please stop it ..
its time sac learnt to be strong and nt juz act strong .
she doesnt want to cry anymore .
she's freakin tired of trying .
and trusting th wrong ppl time and time again .
and for trusting tt bitch so much .but now th truth is out . sac aint gonna trust you anymore .
lyk someone once told me before 你應該 去打強心針 .
tt's so true .
she's too weak .
she doesnt want to put on an act anymore .
she's tired .
she wants to take off tt mask .
but she doesnt want to show th world her pathetic self .
she really needs to be strong .
tt's a definite must .
and she's gonna look things in a whole new perspective .
and a big big thankyou to tan huizhen . alvin tan shu feng . nichol leong jia en .shayue .lee ziqing .chua weiming .yeow minquan . lee yujun .lim xueting .dong tianlan . for being there for her today . when she showed her pathetic self to ur and as ur watched her break down and cry real bad .
thankyou for being there for her . and for all ur huggs .
she really appreciated that .
she's going to learn to be strong and not cry anymore .
and this pathetic self that she's hiding will be gone . for good . when she finally learns how to be strong .

BOO ! (:

finally finished th e learning thing . so stoopid . th ppl resetted th physics quiz caz it was super lag and alot of ppl din finish .. n muz do all over again .. so dumb .. translation was dumb too .. crapped th whole thing out ..
saturday dunno where to go .. sabby's birthday or go out with parents .. cant decide lehh .. its lyk only once sabby's gonna be 21 and den celebrate belated b'dae for father .. i really dunno lo.. timing n date all crash .. one at sentosa one at i dunno where ..
drama has a blog ! haha .. and its pretty ! hahaha ..

aniway if anyone can find wad maths to do msg me tell me can ? i cant find ..

BOO ! (:

ask n learn laggin lyk shyat ..
waste my time ..
its 9.40 now ..
n physics ends at ten ..
isnt tt wonderful ..
aniway .
enjoy ur elearning .
im so not gonna enjoy it ..

BOO ! (:

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today no drama .. tis week no drama .. sian lo .. at home gt nth to do ..
forgot how calculate velocity and there goea th physics test . maths i tink can pass ..
aniway . syf's over . now is wait for results . and plan th sec 4 farewell party . n they got requests .. plus drama fund quite little .. how buy all . hahaha . aniway . thru this SYF got quite alot of ppl to tank n stuffs .
not in any order .based on who i tink of first . haha .

Minhan : thankyou so so much . for helpin out with th screens and i know my mood swings are terrible . and for letting me hug you . it can be super sudden and you still let me hug for as long as i wan . tankyew dear . ily loads . jiayou for everything .
Amelia : thankyou loads . for bein there when i cried . and juz enduring my super bad temper and all .i lost it quite a few times . but thankyou for helpin me in cemetry scene and all . ily .
Jianyi : ehh ! sister ! haha . tankyou so much for letting me vent anger on you .and for juz letting me complain on and on .. and for helping me out so much in th cemetry scene . xie xie ni .
Alvin : heyy (: i love th eye shadow you put on friday . super nice la . haha . thankyou for everything . i cant rmb every detail . bud thankyou !
Michelle : Mrs Tumiwa ! thankyou for everything . and listen to wad i said while i was crying . i know its kinda unclear and slow and irrelavent . but thankyou for everything . ily loads . im gonna miss you so so much la ..
Jocelyn : i know we made you pissed and all durin rehearsals . but thankyou so much .for everything . i'll miss you lots la ..
shayue : as usual . th mood swings which you've endured for super long . and sometimes can juz shout at you for no reason . and quite unreasonable la . bud tankyew so so much for stil being there for me . and for saturday . th super long dinner we had . and all tt you told me . tankyew . so so much for everything . ily alot .
Yujun : tankyou for all th stuffs . ily too . all th best for everything .

i cant rmb all th stuffs over th past 3+ mths . but juz wanna thank all of ur (:
drama rawks . i love all you guys and gals .

th memories of syf .. will always stay with me . and i wont forget any of you . tis may juz be th last syf im takin part in for th rest of my life . haha ..
aniway .. its picture time . i look freaky though . haha .

th wednesday where 3/4 of th world was missing .. and then grp fotos of sec 1 - 4 . and whole drama de pic . and we went pizza for dinner . haha . th waitress skill abit lousy uhh .. hahaha ..