idw t fall back into that state :( idw t go through that all again . but now all th walls are falling down again and im once again sucked into that vortex .idw to be thrown into the bottom of the pit with such helplessness. i cant even help myself out. its like im trapped in that hole of sadness. i dont know why . the storms are all closing in. real heavy and bad storms. they're just too tough to take .idw t experience that same helplessness all over again . will you help pull me out of th pit that im in ? th person that pulled me out before has walked out :( i really need you now do you know that . why did you have t walk out :( yes im sorry. im that dependant on people. but i really really need help.maybe im th one that really needs medication and has depression. maybe i am th one and not you .i dont know anymore :( i dont want t stay in th pit. i really need someone or something to provide me with a rope or ladder so i can get out .

JESUS, HOLD ME NOW - CASTING CROWNS

Living on my own, thinking for myself
Castles in the sand, temporary wealth
Now the walls are falling down
Now the storms are closing in
And here I am again

Jesus, hold me now
I need to feel You in this place
To know You’re by my side
And hear Your voice tonight
Jesus, hold me now
I long for Your embrace
I’m beat and broken down
I can’t find my way out
Jesus, hold me now

Curse this morning sun, drags me into one more day
Of reaping what I’ve sown, living with my shame
Welcome to my world, and the life that I have made
One day you’re a prince, and the next day you’re a slave

Lord, I just looked up today
And realized how far away I am from where You are
I don’t know what else to pray
Broken at Your feet I lay
The life I’ve torn apart

Jesus, hold me now
Jesus, hold me now
Jesus, hold me now
Jesus, hold me now